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Re: Numb and hopeless (TW)

I redownloaded this game I used to play, to give me something positive to do each day and a reason to get out of bed. But my mum just says, “You haven’t got time for that! You’ve got more important things to be doing. You can play that game in years to come.”
Why does my life have to be exclusively study? I used to live like that at school and it destroyed me. Nothing I do is ever gonna be good enough for my mum. This game literally got me through my A levels and I got perfect grades so i dont know what her problem is.
I’m just so frustrated with everything right now

AnonymousToe

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Faolan

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Open day on Monday

I have an open day on Monday, though I'm not too sure what it is about. I think they might offer unpaid job placements, with the possibility of a paid role if I perform well. However, I'm not feeling too positive about it because too many times things have looked promising but haven't led to anything. I'm trying not to rely on this or get my hopes up and am keeping other options on the back burner. I have a few opportunities lined up and am just hoping one of them works out, but I often find myself stuck in negative thoughts.

Redemption

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Re: TW: Too many emotions: Crying 😢

I know you might not believe me but I promise you do deserve to feel better! 🫂 You’re not being pathetic either 🩷

AnonymousToe

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Re: (TW - Self-Harm) Flow Neuroscience headset

Thank you all surgery went ok and not in pain at all the physio came to see me to see if I can walk and see if i can walk up steps and stuff and I could well
But Meant to be going home after the surgery but I’m so drowsy I can barely walk straight and that’s not even cause of the injury. I’ve tried to eat one mouthful but was sick striaght after. And I haven’t gone for a wee since yesterday cause I can’t

Siena

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Marriage talks...

Hello.
I'm 25 and from an Asian background so the marriage talks have started to begin abd deepen and get more solid. Simple fact I ain't ready *far from ready have autism and trying g to cope with tbst alongside sorting my own life, independence and more so have stable work.marrjage talks began from 20, proposal cane from relative..and easily parents rejected saying not now but now...
It's got to the poibt where a boy has been introduced to me drum my cousins mum who say his a "good match for me, as in lives in UK temp visa, calmer personality (no extended family know about my autism) and parentd wants me to meet boy, get engaged atleast and then marry in 2yrs time. Tht way he can get permanent residence in UK. I am married to a "decent " plus besides I dont want to be as a visa UK resident scapegoat either..

I ain't interested in seeing anyone though.and said no abd not ready numerous times but while it's not forceful I feel they are applying some pressure to get married start the process..
What do I do? I can't talk to anyone else family no one understands or will! Even who I thought I would this time around are saying see boy..

Plus..My doc called me this week to do a check in from return of holiday (at which marriage talks began) and like she has asked cpupke years before, whether like marriage things have started and I saud no because it was easy at that time but this time round in holiday and after return it isn't because I'm now at the deemed "msrriagesble age" t. I ended up crying ocer phone to doc and now she wants to see me .

I dont knkw if she is a bit worried because she knows I didn't want to go in holiday and I think she knows it's more then just my autism and anxiety thst made me nervous about going as before I went she was like why, what's happened there? What'd making you feel like this? Is thrrr something more? But I didn't really say and she let that be..

what will happen if I told her?? I wont and beside she is a doc ans theyre there for medical concerns m.

Don't get me wrong I don't think it's at the forced marriage stage but pressure is mounting. I just want advice, what can I do, without there being to too much backlash.

Invisible_me

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TW - self harm

I messed up by accident and my carelessness affected other people. I feel so, so bad. I dont know what to do with myself. I feel like I need to punish myself and I’m in this constant limbo of should I undo years of work and SH or do my best to fight the thoughts? I don’t know what’s the best thing to do. My mind won’t stop.
PS: I’m safe, I never do anything serious.

AnonymousToe

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