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independent_ wrote: »

Ok so a bit more about today. Tbh I’m not feeling the best, I haven’t been for a wee while now. But I think I just have to push through that because if I give into it it will just get worse, if I just sit and do nothing and think about things. So I have to go get the hoover out and run that round, preferably a duster as well. This week I have to do my bedding as well, and I want to do my steps every day this week. If I can do that I’ve accomplished something right. I realised that that is what has given me the best few months in a long time mental health wise, feeling like I’m accomplishing something every day - and last week was a bad week for that.

@independent_ I know you’re not feeling great, but it’s really good that you’re still trying to keep going and Im glad to see youve shared this here. It can be about just doing little things that help. You’re right when you feel like you’ve achieved something in the day, it makes a big difference. Last week might’ve been tough, but this week’s a new one. Even if you just get one or two things done, that still counts. Small steps as a time. You’re definately doing better than you think keep going, one step at a time.

@shannon_164 it’s not silly at all. It’s your comfort thing. Would getting a new one help? I know it’s not the same as the old one but maybe if you got a couple of new ones then you always have one.

this is so silly but i always have a fidget with me at appointments to help keep me in the moment type of thing, i dropped it today while at the doctors and i know it’s there because i had it at the appointment and then didn’t after i got into my car. me being me was too scared to go back in because speaking to people scares me. i emailed them and asked if it was there (even though i know it is) and they said no. it’s so silly but i literally cried my way home over loosing it and now im crying again because im never gonna get it back:( im so silly…

@DonnerKebab thank you. I’m basically just looking for better general fitness, nothing specific really. Basically just walking more, and not sitting on my backside as much, so I thought starting small was a good plan. I can’t take the dog out on my own so I wanted to find something I could do at home, so when I saw that I thought it would be perfect.

@shannon_164 I’m so glad your appointment went well. It’s understandable to panic, it can feel like you’re under pressure to open up in that moment and if you’re not quite ready your brain can just freeze. I’m glad you got something out of it though.

Ok so a bit more about today. Tbh I’m not feeling the best, I haven’t been for a wee while now. But I think I just have to push through that because if I give into it it will just get worse, if I just sit and do nothing and think about things. So I have to go get the hoover out and run that round, preferably a duster as well. This week I have to do my bedding as well, and I want to do my steps every day this week. If I can do that I’ve accomplished something right. I realised that that is what has given me the best few months in a long time mental health wise, feeling like I’m accomplishing something every day - and last week was a bad week for that.

DonnerKebab wrote: »

@Redemption thanks for kind words bro. I mean, everything i vented about here, plus the stuff in the men's chat, plus everything yesterday, it's a tricky time. But i've been through tricky times before, i'll go through one again and come as just as good. Yeah, just everybody's kind words has really had a massive impact on me, so you've all helped me more than you know. How are you doing today bro?

@DonnerKebab yh definitely is a hard time for you atm but we're all here for you and it's a new week too so maybe it will be bit better, how's your morning going so far? I'm just overthinking a lot still, like even in terms of here I just overthink a lot like now you're going through a really hard time but I'm just bringing up myself and stuff like that. I hope things get better for you though bro, they will. Men's support chat is on again today at 8pm so we could talk there too.

the doctors appointment was actually ok, she was really lovely & so patient which was nice (and very different compared to usual!!) so she said she’ll see me again in about 4 weeks to see how things are going and to let me think about her suggestions today too. i am really trying and always plan to open up properly but then i get there and have a complete panic:(

shannon_164 wrote: »

thank you @DonnerKebab i appreciate it

it’s just frustrating because of what the situation actually is - i don’t wanna trigger anybody tho

i hope the doctors are actually helpful today, and that they hurry up too haha my appointment was meant to be 20 mins ago now, which i wouldn’t mind too much if i hadn’t been at work this morning as i’ve literally been up from 1am on like 2 ish hours sleep so i am absolutely exhausted right now!!!

@shannon_164 still looking out for other people, by trying to avoid triggering them. Kind as usual shannon. If you do want to vent and your worried about triggering people, i set up a seperate thread for venting about issues that are triggering and might trigger others, and put a tw on the whole thread. So you can post there if you feel comfortable. You deserve to vent as much as anybody else.

@DonnerKebab no not rlly I doubt id be believed