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I managed to beat my anxiety and phone my gp practice about my appointment - I have one scheduled for 3 weeks time which is better than the inital 5 weeks is guess. However it's not with my primary GP it's with one that ive seen twice and they basically dismissed all what I was saying. Now I really don't want to go and might cancel it.
Currently just crying because I feel too overwhelmed by everything right now 😢

Worst of all things have happened at home and I feel even more shit about my life and all that im going through 😞

I’m scared to talk about this but I’ve seen a few posts about friendships and loneliness so I feel less scared about opening up so basically I want friends but my communication skills aren’t the best (I don’t talk verbally to people until I feel comfortable around them and trust them) I also don’t understand what a healthy friendship is and how to make friends I have really bad anxiety but I do also have ASD and ADHD I mask both of my ASD and ADHD but then I unmask with people I trust and feel comfortable around for example my ADHD makes me hyperactive and I talk a lot and my brain is on the go constantly ASD causes me to have sensory issues but I would say I am a kind person I’m just so anxious and my ADHD can make me to much for other people I would really love to make friends does anyone have any advice or tips thank you🫶🏻

@Summerjune15
Hey. ☺️ I can certainly understand where that is coming from and I truly hope with all my heart that you’re doing okay. I’m sorry to hear about it all. Trauma can be so damaging. If you ever need someone, we’re all here for you. 🫶 Please try and be kind to yourself firstly. Treat yourself softly and with love and care, because you deserve no less.

@Summerjune15 , I really want to echo what everyone else has said here and send you the biggest hug.

Trauma can impact us in so many ways, esspecially our ways of relating to ourselves and our relationship-styles with other people too. It makes sense that sometimes being 'mean' might feel like the safest option when people have hurt you in the past. Closeness with others can be so, so scary sometimes. And it sounds like you're not alone in feeling this way

An update on this 😩

I just tried to book my appointment online but it wouldn't allow me to and now they want me to phone them to book the appointment 😩 i don't want to phone them now, although it might mean I get seen quicker but don't know if I want that either now 😔

I also emailed the ED physical health nurse back and have an appointment next week with her - i was tempted not to email her but she contacted me again just to find out the best time and day.

Camp America also emailed me and said they need a GP letter stating that im fit and healthy to work in america and there are no reasons for me not to be eligible to work in the US - they are just frustrating me at this point

I fucking hate everything right now, all these appointment's stop me from picking up so many opportunities to work as a TA supply as have to book the whole day off 😒. Then the whole thing with the ED nurse is annoying and then camp America is stressing me out 😩

Can I rewind time and not develop these issues.

Vent:

I went to the doctors to get fucking help with my stupid mental health yet no they fucked up the appointment and put the appointment as something to do with my periods and my meds for it and because the woman was too busy to deal with me I was in the fucking room 2 minutes and she told me she was taking me off my meds, could of just fucking emailed that.

How the hell did she think it was a good idea to take me off my fucking meds when I’ve got a stupid condition and need them.

TMI abt period:

I was still getting the pain and also my anxiety increased so that’s why she took me off them but if she looked at the fucking system she would see I have them for the stupid pain but she was too fucking busy to deal with me ffs

@Sian321 i was too scared to say anything, I didn’t even like the lady she was so rushy so I just left it and now I’m just crying over it. I’d spent weeks stressing over this appointment and it was a fucking waste of time. It’ll be 5 weeks till I can even get another so I give up with it. I give up with my mental health

Went to my doctors appointment but it was fucking pointless, they booked it as something else 🤦‍♀️ what a waste of time

@Summerjune15 Thank you.🫶Much love to you.