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im rly struggling bc he keeps bringing up his ex gf and it’s rly doing my head in. he doesn’t understand that i rly dont want to know abt his ex gf and that it’s just ridiculous that he keeps going on abt his ex gf. like have has not moved on from her? he must feel something abt her bc he talks abt her literally every day. and he doesn’t care or seem to care that it bothers me. i know it might make me sound a bit crazy but it’s rly not fair. i struggle with relationships anyway and hearing her name every day is just not nice for me to hear. also bc my ex bf was rly abusive towards me i get scared to get attached to ppl and love ppl so loving. him and trying to is just rly traumatic for me so hearing her name come out of his mouth literally any second he gets the chance it’s rly hard for me to cope with it.

i don’t want to come across as a insecure person but it’s rly just shit for me to be in this position. i love him i do but i dont want to have to constantly hear this nonsense. he even said he wants to go back to the same spot she is from which is a bit daft bc he has a new gf ( me )and he wants to travel to that same place where she is from.. its like he misses his ex gf and i just idk if i want to bother with this anymore. i would miss him if we broke up but idk if i can break up with him. its so hard for me and i just needed to let all this out. it hurts so much . i feel so alone in this he may as well be with his ex gf bc she seems to mean more to him then i ever have done. i hate everything. it’s like im not gd enough and it hurts so much. i just want to be loved and cared for but im not and it’s shit. i hate everything.