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I'm so sorry you're going through this, @Chloe234. I can really hear how upsetting and painful everything feels right now, and it’s completely valid to feel the way you do. You should never be forced into a situation that makes you feel uncomfortable or unsafe.

It's really understandable that you're feeling anxious about your half brother showing up, especially with how his things around the house bring back those traumatic memories. That’s a lot to carry, and you shouldn't have to face it alone

It’s really unfair that your dad is blaming you for the past, that’s not on you at all. None of what happened was your fault in any way. It takes so much courage to speak up about things that matter, and I see how brave you are for doing that. You're doing really well sharing everything with us here

I know you mentioned wanting to feel like you matter, and I want to remind you that you do matter—so much! You're an incredible person, and everyone here sees that in you. Please don’t let anyone else make you feel otherwise.

When you’re going to your mum’s, is there anything that could help you feel safer while you’re there? Maybe reaching out to a support service, contacting your dad, or finding a space where you won’t be alone with anyone? Could seeing her somewhere public, like a cafe, or asking her to come to your dad’s house where you might feel more comfortable, be an option?

We’re here to support you every step of the way. Keep posting here whenever you need to

I’m so sorry he is not considering how you feel in this at all hon because you are right it is completely unfair. Please let us know how you’re doing

Prayers and hugs❤️

@Chloe234 i hope you’re okay. Thanks for sharing all of this, it’s really brave of you. It’s been a really tough journey for you, and I think remembering the fact you’re able to overcome all of that and still be here is something to celebrate.

Like you said you’re able to start college and seem to have a direction to where you want to go. So things, regardless of what’s happened will go much better. I hope you blame yourself less to what’s happened to you, because the circumstances in your life is really out of your hands, regardless of how you feel.
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My goodness @Chloe234. When I got to the end of your post and you talked about your attempt to end your life, I said out loud to myself "I'm not surprised" - what a life you've had.

The thing that really stands out to me in your story is the amount of loss you've had, and the amount of times people just didn't provide you what you needed. It's a heavy thing to have to grow up like that and learn lessons that you shouldn't have to learn.

Whatever you do for the next chapters in your life, it feels important that you live the life you need to live, even if that looks different for you than other people.

Chloe234 wrote:

I'm in college now too and I just hope that things will get better. I hope that im making people proud.

Things can always get better, especially as you get older and find your independence. But it's also okay if the journey from here turns out to be complex - ups and downs, processing everything that happened, and building a life for yourself. It's hard enough to live on this earth as a human even without the life experience you have, so be kind to yourself about it all. Anyone should be proud of you just for living your life and growing into a good person. ⭐

Wow and I thought my life was nuts. I'm so sorry you had to go through all that and lose the one that was there for you too. I know exactly how hard that is but I'm so glad you're still here, know non of it was your fault, you have us all here to support you and you are so strong. Attempts are attempts for a reason hon. They are times you tried to leave the world but the world still needs you. You are so strong and you've got this. It's hard but keep at it💖

eylah wrote: »

just want to get of it i might be just fed up.

@eylah hopefully you will be off the section soon, and if not they will actually get you some support

eylah wrote: »

on section 2 im struggling still. .

@eylah so sorry to hear you’re still struggling.

Looks like a tough few days all round, hugs all