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the twat duo 🤣❤️
im going beach today to chill
@DonnerKebab wow thats concerning. why cant they just round up the 18p per litre to the nearest ten and make it be 20p per litre?
@eylah hope you have a lovely time at the beach, fellow twat duo member 🤣❤️
I'm pretty sure it's because the government does not know what they hell they are doing 99% of the time or how to make effective laws.
Sorry for the super late reply I appreciate it @DonnerKebab.
In a way i wish he would just walk away and abandon me it will happen eventually, the sooner it happens the less I can hurt him.
I felt so guilty and ashamed of it is just want to permanently leave. He keeps asking if im okay and if don't want to tell him how its making me feel that i might have hurt him and how its making me hav3 super negative thoughts towards myself. Like I dropped him home and my thoughts were really negative and bad
Sorry for kind of just blurting everything out to you
right whenever i speak to you now im gonna say hello twat member 🤣🤣❤️
@eylah 100%. It's the law now. The mods are gonna be so confused in support and group chats 🤣
i agree, its a bit strange how its not 20p but ok. hopefully in a few decades we'll find out more about caffeine withdrawal. @DonnerKebab
anyways ive had a think about childline and i think its probably best to take a break from the service as a whole. because quite frankly i need a break from them after how they treated me. i know not all childline volunteers are bad as ive talked with some genuinely good ones, but the childline counsellors who do make my experience of using the service bad bring my mood down a lot.
haha literally 🤣❤️
@Lottie5433 never say sorry for blurting everything out. You deserve a place to vent and friends to support you. Don't worry about the late reply. I've replied even later than that countless times 🤣
I know you want to walk away so he doesn't get hurt, and i know that's because you care deeply about him, but he would be more hurt by you walking away and no longer being there with him than anything else. I can only say this as a guy, but to be vulnerable in front of you, a girl, and stick with you as much as he has, he's not going anywhere. He loves you to the moon and back so your stuck with him now. Can't get rid of him. What would hurt him the most is if you did leave him.
He loves you and was open with his vulnerability to you, and i think he's the right person to be fully vulnerable with yourself. He loves you and wants to help you. Please don't text and drive, please don't speed, and please take care of yourself. He will help you through your struggles, and you help him through his. That's what a relationship is. If not for you, then for him. Growing up as a carer, i had the same thoughts of wanting to die, every day for 10 years, and all that pulled me through it is that i was needed as a carer for my brother. Staying here for others is a powerful motivator, and it kept me here until i learnt to pull through things for myself.
I am so so sorry you are going through those feelings right now. of fear of abandonment, of thoughts of wanting to not be here anymore, and i am so so sorry because it is hell. I'm sending you a virtual hug, and a reminder that this man loves you, and nothing would hurt him more than you not eating and bottling it up until it reaches breaking point for you. He wants to help you heal, and stay by your side. Men like that are rare, and you deserve all that love from him.
I'm sorry if this sounds like rambling. I'm here to talk to about anything Lottie. Sending a virtual hug, i am so proud of you for being open about all of this. I know how hard it is to open up.
@toffuna101 you are right. And even at 20p, it won't make a huge difference even if they change it. The sad truth is, the sugar tax was a money grab. If it was too high, it would deter people buying sugary drinks outright which was the stated aim, and that would mean nobody paying that tax as they wouldn't be buying sugary drinks. So they kept it low enough that people would still buy them the same as before, and it would be extra money put into the treasury. They get a bit of extra money, and they get to claim they are taking action, when the reality is it's a cash grab with no intention of reducing sugary drink intake. It's sad.
And i think your making a good decision with Childline. It's demoralising, i imagine, going to a helpline which is already tough for a lot of people, only to be hung up on mid sentence and ignored. The more that happens, the more irritated and depressed it will make people, especially those in tough spots. Giving it a break for a while is the right thing tofunna for your mental health given they acted that way. It's a very mature decision. If you'd like, i can post a list of helplines for you as alternatives.
@River she really does care for you, you know. This isn't one of those assholes who as soon as college is up says bye bye. This is one of those people who seems to genuinely care. If your not able to stay at college, then maybe it's worth exchanging emails or numbers and asking if she'd stay in touch after you left. Even if only as a way in which she can check in on you. Btw, lovely countryside pictures. You 100% have elite level photography skills.
yeah. nah im good with the helplines, i feel like i know enough helplines honestly. @DonnerKebab
i was gonna post something about the thoughts that ive been experiencing but confidentiality would probably need to be broken and it would get taken down.
@River
NOOO River, the sweet and sour chicken balls aren't worth it. NOO
(I've just realised this will sound very odd and make no sense if you haven't watched breaking bad so sorry if you ain't watched it 🤣)
I'm not sure how to put it, but the gif where walt falls to the floor (this really won't make any sense if you haven't watch breaking bad 🤣)
But seriously, i get it. You might want to try learning to cook a bit of chinese food yourself and trying to remove different ingredients to see which it is your allergic to. I did it and pinpointed the sickness feeling i always got after to msg, so cut it out, and i could eat it sickness free. I can drop you a few YouTube tutorials i learnt from if you want? Nobody should have to live without beef in black bean sauce. 🤣
@River i'm so sorry river. I had a hamster once. My brother ended up getting her. It's very sad when you lose one of them. my mum never told me what she did with the remains sadly, but i have my suspicions that the black bin played a role, though i can't prove it
@River I think so, but if you have pet insurance, it might cover it all.
@Lottie5433 i'm really sorry your going through this. Your an amazing person my friend. I'm here to talk and vent to. And by the way, don't think i didn't notice how brave it was of you to vent everything you did. Your a strong person Lottie. Don't forget that.
@River I think if it's a hamster it would be cheap. But i've never done it myself. I've got this site that you might want to look at though that could help. Your vet will be able to tell you exact costs but this is a decent guide i think: https://mypetsashes.co.uk/pets-ashes/cost-of-pet-cremation/
Im just too much for anyone to handle i make stupid comments, do stupid things to "cope" and "deal" with everything everything is always my fault im failing
@Lottie5433 that isn't true i promise. You are a special person. And you have hurt nobody here i promise. You are a kind soul, and you deserve the world of kindness back friend. And i'll explain why. Cause even though right now, whilst your in a world of pain and depression, you are still thinking about other people and not wanting to hurt them. Even when hurting yourself. You are that sort of kind and caring person that even that sort of pain, doesn't change that core kindness in you, and that is something that is so special about you. I swear, you haven't hurt anybody, and won't hurt by venting. I vented a short while ago, so did so many others about there struggles. You deserve this place to vent and to get support, because your worth supporting Lottie. Your just struggling to see it right now.
And believe me, everybody makes stupid comments from time to time. Doing stupid thing, can't name one person who hasn't. It isn't your fault that your struggling, same as it wasn't my fault all the struggles i went through. I call it something called common denominator syndrome. When everything has been so shit, for so long, so many systemic failings, not supporting those who need it, eventually those people who are left to struggle start to blame themselves. It ruins their self worth and self confidence and leads them to thinking they don't deserve help, and develop certain behaviours. But Lottie, you deserve all the help and support in the world. We all care about you here, and we all see what your struggling to. That you are worth the world, and that you deserve support and care. Your boyfriend see's it too. So many people see how amazing of a person you are, you're just struggling to see what everybody else does right now, at what i call rock bottom.