I honestly really don't know what the point in life is anymore. It's just too hard and there seems to be nothing I can do to stop all the bad things from happening. I was sexually assaulted 10 days ago. I am not coping. Today I went to a SARC and that was honestly more traumatising than what happened to me. Nobody believed me, it was like they were trying to tell me what to do and they could not see things from my point of view. I just want to forget but it is eating me up inside. My meds aren't working. I'm always self harming, I can't stop thinking of ways to make the pain permanently stop. I just need help and nobody is able to provide that. I just feel like I've been left abandoned. I just don't want to do this anymore. It's not fair and it's way too fucking hard. All of my relationships with people are failing. Counselling waiting lists are too long. I just want all this pain to stop.
I just can't cope anymore.
I am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions.