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*BananaMonkey*
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Hey..
Recently I have been finding things rather difficult. I feel really anxious and on edge and I am worrying about loads of things, like death and losing my job and relapsing and recovery and things. Tonight things got bad, and I had pains in my chest and something came over me, something happened. I don't know what but I didn't feel in control.
I know that the sensible thing to do is go and talk to my doctor about this, but I can't something is stopping me, I don't know what exactly. I guess maybe I feel disappointed in myself, cos I have been really trying and taking my medication daily and trying to sort my life out, and now this. I don't know. I just put so much pressure on myself to try and do the right thing and be 'happy' but the truth is maybe I just can't be 'happy'
I have always been an anxious person and worry about things a lot. But I have always had it under control until now, I don't even feel in control of things right now.
I just want to stay at home, not go to work, not go anywhere. I know it isn't an option, I have to go to work. I have to carry on. I don't feel strong right now.
The thoughts in my head are too much, I can't relapse, I just can't I 'have' been okay, other than feeling anxious all the time. The medication is controlling my moods and they are more stable, but now this has all happened and I feel like it's just another thing that is going to hurt me, and make me fail at recovery.
I am scared, really scared the thoughts in my head, are making me feel bad things, and they are making me think that bad things will happen if I relapse, I can't deal with that.
I miss having counselling, I miss having one person who I could talk to and trust.
I hate myself so much right now. I just want somebody to tell me that things will be okay and work out.
I can't stop feeling worried and panicky.
Sorry for posting another thread.
Recently I have been finding things rather difficult. I feel really anxious and on edge and I am worrying about loads of things, like death and losing my job and relapsing and recovery and things. Tonight things got bad, and I had pains in my chest and something came over me, something happened. I don't know what but I didn't feel in control.
I know that the sensible thing to do is go and talk to my doctor about this, but I can't something is stopping me, I don't know what exactly. I guess maybe I feel disappointed in myself, cos I have been really trying and taking my medication daily and trying to sort my life out, and now this. I don't know. I just put so much pressure on myself to try and do the right thing and be 'happy' but the truth is maybe I just can't be 'happy'
I have always been an anxious person and worry about things a lot. But I have always had it under control until now, I don't even feel in control of things right now.
I just want to stay at home, not go to work, not go anywhere. I know it isn't an option, I have to go to work. I have to carry on. I don't feel strong right now.
The thoughts in my head are too much, I can't relapse, I just can't I 'have' been okay, other than feeling anxious all the time. The medication is controlling my moods and they are more stable, but now this has all happened and I feel like it's just another thing that is going to hurt me, and make me fail at recovery.
I am scared, really scared the thoughts in my head, are making me feel bad things, and they are making me think that bad things will happen if I relapse, I can't deal with that.
I miss having counselling, I miss having one person who I could talk to and trust.
I hate myself so much right now. I just want somebody to tell me that things will be okay and work out.
I can't stop feeling worried and panicky.
Sorry for posting another thread.
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'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
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I have to go to work and I feel like rubbish. Had a nightmare and woke up with my heart racing and I was shaking and crying, then couldn't get back to sleep.
" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
How horrible to be feeling so anxious. Lot of thoughts and 'what-ifs' seem to be building themselves up quite a lot in your head and it sounds like they're really making things difficult.
It's understandable to feel like you've let yourself down or feel like you're going backwards, but you haven't and you're not
Our article 'Will I always have anxiety?' says it better than I can:
Going to see your doc does sound like a sensible idea - agreed I know you know this already, but I'll say it anyway: they're there for you and you won't be letting them down by going back to see them. Remember that things like Doc Ready or going with someone might help a bit too.
Finally, I'm sorry to hear that your friend had a go at you. That really can't have helped. But it definitely doesn't mean you're a horrible person (we know better ). From what you said about the holiday, it sounds like they are going through a rough time at the moment too. Maybe what they said is more because of that?
Hope you had an easier night last night and have a good day at work. Let us know how you're getting on
I cant face going to see my doctor yet though
I am a horrible person.
I feel like rubbish
" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
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" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
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" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
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" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
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" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
Sounds like you had a difficult night. How are you doing today?
people care and your not a horrible person the fact you still went to volunteering proves that your caring and loving to people and willing to put others first
perhaps you can try finding music or quotes or something which helps you relax
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" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
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" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
I dont even know why I get like this anymore. Really sucks.
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" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
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" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
Hate who I am at the minute.
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" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
keep going.
you can do this.
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" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
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" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
Sent from my GT-I8190 using Tapatalk
" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
Do u get to see ur friends that much? Going out can sometimes lift ur spirts and u start to enjoy others company. There must be places u go to or like to go to? Remember that u don't have to be on ur own to feel useless, there's always someone either at the end of the phone or who u can visit. Have u used the helpline for Smartians at any point? May benefit u as most of the people who they talk to feel like u with not being able to enjoy the finer things in life and letting go of things by not worrying. Would u like there number?
Hugs xx
How are you feeling now?
Really low.
" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
A build up of things, and today just made me feel even worse.
" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
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" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "
Take some deep breaths if you can Monkey. You're not a horrible person - you're friendly and kind
I notice in what you said 'take all your crap out on me' , the 'your' is important. If someone is taking something out on you that's their responsibility and it's not a reflection on you. It doesn't feel very nice though and it can be really upsetting.
Sounds like you feel you have enough on your own plate without taking on other people's? Would that be right?
It's more than okay to be selfish sometimes and let people know when you need a bit of space for yourself.
Don't forget you've got a a place in the self esteem chat tonight - it should be a really good session and it's 2 hours just for you - you could switch your phone off, get comfy and allow yourself that time.
I hope the day brightens up for you *hug*
My day was fine, kept me distracted, now I just feel so rubbish though
Yeah I have already turned my phone off, so the chat should be good
" So I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing, thanks for all the joy they're bringing, who can live without it, I ask in all honestly what would life be? Without a song or a dance, what are we? So I say thank you for the music, for giving it to me "
'' It's a beautiful day and I can't stop myself from smiling "