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alcohol and my life
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i've been alcoholic since i was about 17, i smoked load of weed, took the odd valium. but recently since jan this year, ive been taking anything. i have been buying dihydrocodeine, tramadol, diazepam, nitrazepam and taking drink on top of this. i feel like i just want a different high, than the booze and weed. what can i do because im becoming a bit of junkie
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Is there something missing in your life? for you to post on here makes me wonder if you dislike your habits and want to change. you are honest on here which is a good start but i don't think you are being true to yourself.
Is it stress, depression, incidents within your own life, or just wanting to get off your face?
I think until you've looked at addressing the reasons for taking the drugs, you'll struggle to get off them.
If it's to blot out pain then perhaps talking to a trained counsellor would help. If it's for the high, what sort of activities do you/have you done that could perhaps offer a greater high?
Sorry if it sounds all limp and patronising, just 2 pence worth.
It's really good that you are aware you are not happy in your life. you say about getting hold of something to 'help' you but all you are doing is harming yourself. it's i guess a vicious circle you've put yourself in and i don't think you realise you can have the strength to stop or at least cut down on the drugs.
I am no doctor so i couldn't tell you if you have a chemical inbalance. i don't think it is the best thing to be worrying about even though it's eaier said than done. your team of specialists would have likely picked it up. As you said you feel depressed, tell them this because it's important but i think its probably the come down of alcohol and drugs.
do you have any close friends around you?
It's really good that you are aware that you are not happy in your life. you say about getting hold of something to 'help' you but all you are doing is harming yourself. ii think you know that deep down. it's i guess, a vicious circle you've put yourself in and i don't think you realise you can have the strength to stop or at least cut down on the drugs.
I am no doctor so i couldn't tell you if you have a chemical inbalance. i don't think it is the best thing to be worrying about even though it's easier said than done. your team of specialists would have likely picked it up. As you said you feel depressed, tell them this because it's important but i think its probably the come down of alcohol and drugs.
do you have any close friends around you?
I haven't had many friends as i wouldn't leave the house much unless i had been drinking. I now have 2 friends who are trying to help me the now. I moved in with them and we live together but i don't know if it's permanant as i like being by myself alot. I seen my Doctor today and he wasn't a great help. They know about my drink problem and have had me on anti depressants. I also seen my Psychiatric nurse today and i told her i was drinking heavily and taking diazepam, which i was buying on the street and i told her i took 3 nitrazepam tablets with buckfast. I told her i dabbled with Dihydrocodeine and Tramadol, but told her i wasn't really hooked on them, she said i wouldn't get them anyway as there for pain relief. She did say she would try and get me put on Diazepam, starting with 20mg and then taper off it after a while. she said it was short term
but only if my Psychiatrist agrees, if not i won't get it. I would stop booze if i had a substitute.
Example: You drink so much you become an alcholic, the only way to manage your life is to stop drinking - well that sounds boring!!! If you used in moderation you wouldnt have had to quit!
I think your honesty is good. i think that you should stop worrying as much as possible about not having people around you. to me you sound quite lonely- would you say so?
If you have two people, two friends there trying to help you, take all the help you can get. I think that coming of the alcohol will be fucking difficult but you can't expect diazepam to sort out all your issues. either way to help yourself you will have to tone down the drugs and alcohol, it won't be easy.
Keep your honesty most importantly to yourself, but don't rely on your doctor to give you diazepam thinking that this will work wonders. it's addictive.
-have you ever asked for some councelling?
have you asked yourself what you'd do if you were put on diazepam, the comedown on that isn't pleasant either.
it's really good you haven't had a drink since monday. i think you have it deep down inside a way to support yourself. as i've said before it won't be easy. might be the worse thing ever. just use the support around you and keep with the honesty.