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alcohol and my life

Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,324 The Mix Honorary Guru
i've been alcoholic since i was about 17, i smoked load of weed, took the odd valium. but recently since jan this year, ive been taking anything. i have been buying dihydrocodeine, tramadol, diazepam, nitrazepam and taking drink on top of this. i feel like i just want a different high, than the booze and weed. what can i do because im becoming a bit of junkie

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  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,324 The Mix Honorary Guru
    A bit? Go to the doctors and get some advice.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,324 The Mix Honorary Guru
    i crave booze alot, my doctor knows about my alcohol problem, and won't prescribe drugs like diazepam. i stopped for 2 yrs and i was doing well and had a relapse. now im drinking again, smoking weed everyday, i was also buying dihydrocodeine from someone prescribed them and nitrazepam. i don't have a problem with benzos but i can see why they are addictive, there like mind erasers, i drank with them and couldn't remember a thing. would my doctor prescribe me diazepam if i was taking them without a prescription, because isn't it dangerous to withdraw from these?
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,324 The Mix Honorary Guru
    You shouldn't really be filling the void with more drugs to take the edge off. It is really up to your doctor and if they think it is best for you. I can't really say without knowing you, all I know is you have a addiction problem to more than just alcohol.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,324 The Mix Honorary Guru
    i just drank and smoked a few years ago, but now i spend my time looking up different drugs that i can use recreationally. i've heard how people love opiates and benzos. i had valium years ago called squiggly gs, they turned out to be alprazolam. i haven't had an addiction benzos or opiates but after reading peoples expierences im very curious. drink and drugs are the only way i can cope theses days. reality can be a terrible thing at times :crying:
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,324 The Mix Honorary Guru
    in all honesty, i think its really sad that you are so caught up in drugs you shouldn't be taking without pescription. you are going to end up potentially killing yourself just finding your next fix. maybe not on psychiatric drugs but something.
    Is there something missing in your life? for you to post on here makes me wonder if you dislike your habits and want to change. you are honest on here which is a good start but i don't think you are being true to yourself.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,324 The Mix Honorary Guru
    Having never taken drugs apart from alcohol I don't know how much help I'll be. However when you think about the drug taking e.t.c. what sort of reasons do you have for doing so?

    Is it stress, depression, incidents within your own life, or just wanting to get off your face?
    I think until you've looked at addressing the reasons for taking the drugs, you'll struggle to get off them.
    If it's to blot out pain then perhaps talking to a trained counsellor would help. If it's for the high, what sort of activities do you/have you done that could perhaps offer a greater high?

    Sorry if it sounds all limp and patronising, just 2 pence worth.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,324 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I get down alot and i'm just wanting an escape from reality sometimes. i'm not happy with my life, i spend most days wondering what i can get my hands on to help me, but i just end up more depressed the next day or while i'm on drink or drugs. I'm under the mental health team for OCD and anxiety, but i think i have a chemical inbalance in my brain. i go from happy (usually when i'm going to get something) and then sad, and feeling sorry for myself, then i can get really aggressive esp with the drink and diazepam together. I'm seeing my doctor today, then my psychiatric nurse is coming over. I'm telling them everything i've been taking. I do tell people i want to stop but i don't know if i really can. I never took many drugs apart from booze and weed until this year and i went a bit crazy. Alot of it is to get off my face and i like the high but it's more about the fact i've never been truly happy with my life. Also i've no intrests except looking up different drugs. I can get really depressed and when on nothing can lie awake all night thinking about things. thanks for your help guys i do want to change.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,324 The Mix Honorary Guru
    jungo87 wrote: »
    i'm not happy with my life, i spend most days wondering what i can get my hands on to help me, but i just end up more depressed
    i think i have a chemical inbalance in my brain. i go from happy (usually when i'm going to get something) and then sad, and feeling sorry for myself, then i can get really aggressive esp with the drink and diazepam together. I'm seeing my doctor today, then my psychiatric nurse is coming over. I'm telling them everything i've been taking. I do tell people i want to stop but i don't know if i really can.
    It's more about the fact i've never been truly happy with my life. Also i've no intrests except looking up different drugs. I can get really depressed and when on nothing can lie awake all night thinking about things.

    It's really good that you are aware you are not happy in your life. you say about getting hold of something to 'help' you but all you are doing is harming yourself. it's i guess a vicious circle you've put yourself in and i don't think you realise you can have the strength to stop or at least cut down on the drugs.
    I am no doctor so i couldn't tell you if you have a chemical inbalance. i don't think it is the best thing to be worrying about even though it's eaier said than done. your team of specialists would have likely picked it up. As you said you feel depressed, tell them this because it's important but i think its probably the come down of alcohol and drugs.


    do you have any close friends around you?
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,324 The Mix Honorary Guru
    jungo87 wrote: »
    i'm not happy with my life, i spend most days wondering what i can get my hands on to help me, but i just end up more depressed
    i think i have a chemical inbalance in my brain. i go from happy (usually when i'm going to get something) and then sad, and feeling sorry for myself, then i can get really aggressive esp with the drink and diazepam together. I'm seeing my doctor today, then my psychiatric nurse is coming over. I'm telling them everything i've been taking. I do tell people i want to stop but i don't know if i really can.
    It's more about the fact i've never been truly happy with my life. Also i've no intrests except looking up different drugs. I can get really depressed and when on nothing can lie awake all night thinking about things.

    It's really good that you are aware that you are not happy in your life. you say about getting hold of something to 'help' you but all you are doing is harming yourself. ii think you know that deep down. it's i guess, a vicious circle you've put yourself in and i don't think you realise you can have the strength to stop or at least cut down on the drugs.
    I am no doctor so i couldn't tell you if you have a chemical inbalance. i don't think it is the best thing to be worrying about even though it's easier said than done. your team of specialists would have likely picked it up. As you said you feel depressed, tell them this because it's important but i think its probably the come down of alcohol and drugs.


    do you have any close friends around you?
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,324 The Mix Honorary Guru
    It's really good that you are aware that you are not happy in your life. you say about getting hold of something to 'help' you but all you are doing is harming yourself. ii think you know that deep down. it's i guess, a vicious circle you've put yourself in and i don't think you realise you can have the strength to stop or at least cut down on the drugs.
    I am no doctor so i couldn't tell you if you have a chemical inbalance. i don't think it is the best thing to be worrying about even though it's easier said than done. your team of specialists would have likely picked it up. As you said you feel depressed, tell them this because it's important but i think its probably the come down of alcohol and drugs.


    do you have any close friends around you?

    I haven't had many friends as i wouldn't leave the house much unless i had been drinking. I now have 2 friends who are trying to help me the now. I moved in with them and we live together but i don't know if it's permanant as i like being by myself alot. I seen my Doctor today and he wasn't a great help. They know about my drink problem and have had me on anti depressants. I also seen my Psychiatric nurse today and i told her i was drinking heavily and taking diazepam, which i was buying on the street and i told her i took 3 nitrazepam tablets with buckfast. I told her i dabbled with Dihydrocodeine and Tramadol, but told her i wasn't really hooked on them, she said i wouldn't get them anyway as there for pain relief. She did say she would try and get me put on Diazepam, starting with 20mg and then taper off it after a while. she said it was short term
    but only if my Psychiatrist agrees, if not i won't get it. I would stop booze if i had a substitute.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,324 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I think the key to drugs is moderation. If you are doing it so much that you have to quit - you fucked up.

    Example: You drink so much you become an alcholic, the only way to manage your life is to stop drinking - well that sounds boring!!! If you used in moderation you wouldnt have had to quit!
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,324 The Mix Honorary Guru
    jungo87 wrote: »
    I now have 2 friends who are trying to help me the now. I moved in with them and we live together but i don't know if it's permanant as i like being by myself alot.

    I would stop booze if i had a substitute.

    I think your honesty is good. i think that you should stop worrying as much as possible about not having people around you. to me you sound quite lonely- would you say so?
    If you have two people, two friends there trying to help you, take all the help you can get. I think that coming of the alcohol will be fucking difficult but you can't expect diazepam to sort out all your issues. either way to help yourself you will have to tone down the drugs and alcohol, it won't be easy.
    Keep your honesty most importantly to yourself, but don't rely on your doctor to give you diazepam thinking that this will work wonders. it's addictive.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,324 The Mix Honorary Guru
    I couldn't drink in moderation as i have problems. I would say i can get lonely at times, but when i've got people around me, it's like i would rather be by myself. I don't understand it myself. I haven't had a drink since Monday and my nurse said i can stop without any problems as i don't appear to be physically dependant on it yet. I'm taking Steraline, started it on Tuesday when seen my nurse. I don't expect the Diazepam to be a magically cure, and i'm well aware of the addiction, that can come from it. I just need it for a short while to get me through the Alcohol cravings. I have been taking 2 solpadol tabs that dissolve in water that contain 30mg codeine and 500mg paracetamol. They have helped with sleep but i'm only using them for a short time as i don't like taking paracetamol esp after my drinking. It's just a case of waiting until my nurse gets back to me. I might even take the Antabuse as well that way i know i won't drink.
  • Former MemberFormer Member Posts: 1,876,324 The Mix Honorary Guru
    your issues around people and your drink issue come accross psychological

    -have you ever asked for some councelling?

    have you asked yourself what you'd do if you were put on diazepam, the comedown on that isn't pleasant either.
    it's really good you haven't had a drink since monday. i think you have it deep down inside a way to support yourself. as i've said before it won't be easy. might be the worse thing ever. just use the support around you and keep with the honesty.
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