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Hi, my name is Shay.
Hi I'm Shay. My story is long so buckle down. I was sexually assaulted by my uncle when I was 6-8. I used to fantasise about killing myself a lot when I was younger, now I'm just living in oblivion. We went to court in May, they refused some of my evidence and let my paedophile uncle back on the streets. After finding out he was roaming around again, I then found out my dad has cancer. During all of this I had a phantom pregnancy. I was so convinced I was pregnant that when the doctors did an ultrasound for me I cried. It was like loosing a baby I never had. So ever since I've had extreme maternal depression. Not only that but, my boyfriends dad just walked out on them. All this and I'm only 17 and work 40 hours a week in a nursery were I'm surrounded in the only thing I want, a baby. I'm horribly depressed, anxious about everything, suffer with horrifying anger issues and body issues and I'm in constant agony. As you can see I'm clearly a ray of sunshine. But I'd love to find some hope. People to help. A place to rebuild, I hope that place is here.