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I failed, and now I can't work properly
Hey! This is probably in the wrong forum btw.
So I had "important" exams a few weeks ago and I am starting to get my marks back. I did, fine, no. I did good compared to other people, but I don't feel like it's good, at all. For example, I got a 100%, a 99% which are really good but now I got a 70 and 75% where the average grade was about 62%. I'm just academicaly very demanding to myself, I sometimes think that that's basically the only thing I'm good at, getting good grades. Grades are worthless. So now my average is about 85% which is good but it never feels like it's enough. I want to do medecine so I must say every "bad" grade for me is extremely frustrating even though colleges don't look at this year's grades, so really it's useless pain. But if I can't do it now I will never do it later. So yeah, I just hate myself every time, so I get my expectations higher, so I disapoint myself again, and now I have a ton of homework, and I can't do it. I should be doing my homework instead of writing this. I feel so weak, and as a tea addict I can't work without good tea and all I have left is some very very bad tea, even with sugar it's bad! I just took a shower but still can't concentrate, I don't know what to do, it's such a pain, both on the short and long term I feel like I can't bare academic failure. I dont know what to do, and again I'll regret posting this tomorrow (Hi future me).
Have a good day everyone, I love you
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