Not sure i can do uni.
I really dont know what to do about uni. Im finding it so so hard at the moment. Its been exactly a week since my dad dropped me off and i have been okay for most of the week but im really struggling today. I feel that everyone else has met loads of people and made friends and i havent really. There are a few girls i get on well with and one of them has been really helping me by like carrying my laundry and shopping bags for me but then she is in a different flat and i feel bad keeping asking her if she wants to do something cause she is friends with her flat mates and they all do things. My flat mates are all really nice and like me, they also dont go out much. I like that because i dont feel bad for staying in and feel pressured to go out but then at the same time i dont feel we are as close as other flats are so i feel more lonely. Other flats in my halls are making jokes about how shit my flat is and how they are glad they arent in it and i know its not aimed at me but its still upsetting me.
Im really annoyed at myself because i cant do anything with my foot and everyone has went to the beach tonight for a fire and food but i couldnt go because i cant get there on crutches and i didnt want to make my friend stay behind with me so i pretended to be fine when im not because its not fair for me to make her not have fun and get to know people. Im just sat in my room crying but everyone thinks im fine and loving uni.
I guess its just because im by myself and not doing anything that im feeling like this. Lectures start tomorrow so hopefully ill feel better then because i wont have as much time to think. I just dont want to end up doing something stupid again.
Sorry for the super long message