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The 'I need a hug' thread - please read first post before posting :)

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  • fadedangelfadedangel Posts: 263 Budding Regular
    Farewell Everyone, Thoughtsy has to leave The Mix ๐Ÿค— โ™ฅ๏ธ
    ยซ I have been through hell but the best is yet to come ยซย 
    LaineTheAprilFool
  • LaineLaine Llama Mama Gone for GooPosts: 2,307 Boards Champion
    I could honestly cry right now I'm just clearly not worth itย 

    ๐ŸŒˆPositive thoughts๐ŸŒˆ

    "What's gonna be left of the world if you're not in it?" ~ Bastille

    "Here's to the ones that we got
    Cheers to the wish you were here, but you're not" ~ Maroon 5
    BubblesGoesBoofadedangelTheAprilFool
  • BubblesGoesBooBubblesGoesBoo Sunny ScotlandPosts: 3,535 Community Veteran
    Just woke from the most awful nightmare. This is why I hate sleep, why go to sleep when you know you're going to wake up feeling even worse? Sat in tears, it felt so real, like I was back there reliving it all again.ย 
    ' So I put a bullet where I shouda put a helmet, and I crash my car cause I wanna get carried away, that's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself 'hey, I wanna get better''ย ย 
    LaineAifefadedangelTheAprilFool
  • ShaunieShaunie Iโ€™m alive but Iโ€™m โœจdeadโœจ England ๐Ÿ Posts: 10,930 An Original Mixlorian
    Old โ€˜friendโ€™ just sent me a massive paragraph saying they have โ€œgone past caringโ€ about me and cant be โ€˜fuckingโ€™ bothered with extremly distant people and load of other stuff.ย 

    Okay well i am a distant person so i can see why wouldnt wanna bother being friends with me and get that if i find it hard to stay in contact with people cause i am distant then who would wanna bother like dont blame them. But to say โ€œpast caringโ€ bit harsh wording?No one could give a shit even if dead. Have no friends and just alone cause my own fault so wil never feel better

    Well now in a shit mood even though i deseve it so why am i suprised. & now have an appointment :/

    ๐•Š๐•ฅ๐•’๐•ช ๐•ค๐•ฅ๐•ฃ๐• ๐•Ÿ๐•˜ ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•

    BubblesGoesBooLaineAifefadedangelTheAprilFooldancertorimaddie050
  • LaineLaine Llama Mama Gone for GooPosts: 2,307 Boards Champion
    I'm really going to struggle with college my timetable is bleh I only have two early mornings but I finish late and Friday I'm in for one pointless lesson and just bleh how do I keep up going with my mental state?


    ๐ŸŒˆPositive thoughts๐ŸŒˆ

    "What's gonna be left of the world if you're not in it?" ~ Bastille

    "Here's to the ones that we got
    Cheers to the wish you were here, but you're not" ~ Maroon 5
    fadedangelShaunieTheAprilFool
  • BubblesGoesBooBubblesGoesBoo Sunny ScotlandPosts: 3,535 Community Veteran
    edited September 2018
    Was honest with my manager about why I was in hospital. it's the first time I've let anyone at work know what I've been doing to myself. Normally my sick lines just say 'admitted to hospital' and I've made up some bullshit but not this time. not sure if it was the right move or not. she was supportive and asked if there was anything they could do to help but sadly there's not :( ย 
    ' So I put a bullet where I shouda put a helmet, and I crash my car cause I wanna get carried away, that's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself 'hey, I wanna get better''ย ย 
    AifeShauniefadedangelTheAprilFool
  • TheAprilFoolTheAprilFool Miniposter Posts: 187 Boards Initiate
    Today I found out that one of my friends has considered ending her life recently. I've been worried about my friendship group in general for a while but this brought up a lot of mixed feelings.
    LaineShaunie
  • LaineLaine Llama Mama Gone for GooPosts: 2,307 Boards Champion
    I knew my weekend away at my partners would end in tears but I didn't think it would hurt this much to have to leave, I'm trying to hold onto it only being 3 weeks till I see him again but it's hard I'm just so unhappy at home :/ย 

    ๐ŸŒˆPositive thoughts๐ŸŒˆ

    "What's gonna be left of the world if you're not in it?" ~ Bastille

    "Here's to the ones that we got
    Cheers to the wish you were here, but you're not" ~ Maroon 5
    ShaunieTheAprilFool
  • ShaunieShaunie Iโ€™m alive but Iโ€™m โœจdeadโœจ England ๐Ÿ Posts: 10,930 An Original Mixlorian
    ย 

    ๐•Š๐•ฅ๐•’๐•ช ๐•ค๐•ฅ๐•ฃ๐• ๐•Ÿ๐•˜ ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•

    LaineTheAprilFool
  • ShaunieShaunie Iโ€™m alive but Iโ€™m โœจdeadโœจ England ๐Ÿ Posts: 10,930 An Original Mixlorian
    I feel awful ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ

    ๐•Š๐•ฅ๐•’๐•ช ๐•ค๐•ฅ๐•ฃ๐• ๐•Ÿ๐•˜ ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•

    fadedangelLaineTheAprilFool
  • BubblesGoesBooBubblesGoesBoo Sunny ScotlandPosts: 3,535 Community Veteran
    had to make the decision not to go to the hospital with my dad this time around, im low on holidays at work and with my sister and her partner being unemployed I just can't afford it, he wants to go on his own now but he's not meant to cause of the distance :(ย 
    ' So I put a bullet where I shouda put a helmet, and I crash my car cause I wanna get carried away, that's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself 'hey, I wanna get better''ย ย 
    ShaunieTheAprilFool
  • [Deleted User][Deleted User] Posts: 0 Literally just got here
    I so want to go home right now. I feel a fish out of water and can't swim away as have Leanne's funeral this Saturday and I have to keep strong. :'(
    TheAprilFool
  • ShaunieShaunie Iโ€™m alive but Iโ€™m โœจdeadโœจ England ๐Ÿ Posts: 10,930 An Original Mixlorian
    edited October 2018
    Someone asked if i am still alive , through text message as dont reply. And then they said they cant be bothered to try anymore. Ans cant be botherd to wait for a reply back in a weeks time. Tbh i have started trying more, a week is better than months. But i guss ย is fair enough. As a week replying everytime is not okay. (?) if want to meet up at some point aswellย 

    im so alone. I donโ€™t know what is wrong with me. Why am i so distant and hard to keep in contact with people๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ

    ๐•Š๐•ฅ๐•’๐•ช ๐•ค๐•ฅ๐•ฃ๐• ๐•Ÿ๐•˜ ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•

    fadedangelTheAprilFool
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    fadedangelMillie2787TheAprilFool
  • Millie2787Millie2787 ๐Ÿถ ๐Ÿ’œ Posts: 3,450 Boards Guru
    Why why is everything such a uphill battle - All I ask is for a break from all this shit ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ฉ
    Sometimes all you need is one person to believe in you , for you to begin to believe in yourself.
    TheAprilFoolfadedangelShaunie
  • TheAprilFoolTheAprilFool Miniposter Posts: 187 Boards Initiate
    Me and my boyfriend broke up on Friday. I knew it was coming for a while but now I'm worried that my self-esteem issues will prevent me from finding someone.ย 
    BubblesGoesBoofadedangelShaunie[Deleted User]
  • BubblesGoesBooBubblesGoesBoo Sunny ScotlandPosts: 3,535 Community Veteran
    Today we find out wether my grandads cancer has spread or not, just waiting for the call. Had to leave work early cause im not coping with it all and have an emergency appointment to talk it through with someone, im not coping.
    ' So I put a bullet where I shouda put a helmet, and I crash my car cause I wanna get carried away, that's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself 'hey, I wanna get better''ย ย 
    fadedangelShaunie
  • ShaunieShaunie Iโ€™m alive but Iโ€™m โœจdeadโœจ England ๐Ÿ Posts: 10,930 An Original Mixlorian
    Really strugglig tonight. -Not sure why. Have self harmed. Really sad. Really wish i wasnt breathing :โ€™( :โ€™(ย 

    ๐•Š๐•ฅ๐•’๐•ช ๐•ค๐•ฅ๐•ฃ๐• ๐•Ÿ๐•˜ ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•

  • [Deleted User][Deleted User] Posts: 0 Literally just got here

    Me and my boyfriend broke up on Friday. I knew it was coming for a while but now I'm worried that my self-esteem issues will prevent me from finding someone.ย 
    Hey!
    Sorry you and bf split, but you must allow yourself time to get over him. Splitting up is never pleasant, it hits us on many levels, but there will be a time when you will be able to let go; let go the memory. Much of splitting up causes us unecessary guilt, but we are all too human and easily blame ourselves. Again, time is the healer but we must agree to letting go.

    You will find somebody. It might be that theyfind you first. It's happened to me when I least expected it. Love is like that; sometimes it chooses us. :)
  • ShaunieShaunie Iโ€™m alive but Iโ€™m โœจdeadโœจ England ๐Ÿ Posts: 10,930 An Original Mixlorian
    edited October 2018
    Had dream i was being suffocated again ๐Ÿ˜ญ :(. why do i literally feel a bit hard to breath now:(. & have woken up with stomach ache & feel really unwell ๐Ÿ˜ฅ๐Ÿ˜ฅ ๐Ÿ˜“ Why am i still alive:(.

    ๐•Š๐•ฅ๐•’๐•ช ๐•ค๐•ฅ๐•ฃ๐• ๐•Ÿ๐•˜ ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•

    Laine
  • ShaunieShaunie Iโ€™m alive but Iโ€™m โœจdeadโœจ England ๐Ÿ Posts: 10,930 An Original Mixlorian
    Hi. Attention seeker here. Seeking attention. I feel awful

    ๐•Š๐•ฅ๐•’๐•ช ๐•ค๐•ฅ๐•ฃ๐• ๐•Ÿ๐•˜ ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•

    Laine
  • ShaunieShaunie Iโ€™m alive but Iโ€™m โœจdeadโœจ England ๐Ÿ Posts: 10,930 An Original Mixlorian
    edited October 2018
    Ban me pls ย Will i get banned if i spam and burden the place. I think am already

    ๐•Š๐•ฅ๐•’๐•ช ๐•ค๐•ฅ๐•ฃ๐• ๐•Ÿ๐•˜ ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•

    Laine
  • ShaunieShaunie Iโ€™m alive but Iโ€™m โœจdeadโœจ England ๐Ÿ Posts: 10,930 An Original Mixlorian
    Hahaha so embarrassing. I should of done what i normally do. - Which is post on the activty profil part and then i can actually delete them after.ย 

    ๐•Š๐•ฅ๐•’๐•ช ๐•ค๐•ฅ๐•ฃ๐• ๐•Ÿ๐•˜ ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•

    Laine
  • [Deleted User][Deleted User] Posts: 0 Literally just got here
    Came home later today, internet not working, VPN not working; power cut. Worked on our solar panels up on the roof, all good until I got a shock off the accumulator - ouch! Glad I was on a rubber mat - even so. Now I got a splitting heachache, headache tablets not working, Peggy vomitng again and now waiting for doctor to arrive. Haven't slept in 24 hours feeling a wreck. Memory of those poor villagers not helping either ย  :'(
    LaineMillie2787
  • LaineLaine Llama Mama Gone for GooPosts: 2,307 Boards Champion
    My BDD is really playing up today for some reason.ย 

    I just don't see the point in trying, I couldn't get myself to college today because I just didn't want people to have to see me, ย they don't deserve that and I'm sorry I can't make myself look good for them :/

    ๐ŸŒˆPositive thoughts๐ŸŒˆ

    "What's gonna be left of the world if you're not in it?" ~ Bastille

    "Here's to the ones that we got
    Cheers to the wish you were here, but you're not" ~ Maroon 5
    ShaunieAidan[Deleted User]
  • [Deleted User][Deleted User] Posts: 0 Literally just got here
    Laine said:
    My BDD is really playing up today for some reason.ย 

    I just don't see the point in trying, I couldn't get myself to college today because I just didn't want people to have to see me, ย they don't deserve that and I'm sorry I can't make myself look good for them :/

    Laine
  • LaineLaine Llama Mama Gone for GooPosts: 2,307 Boards Champion
    Floxy said:
    Laine said:
    My BDD is really playing up today for some reason.ย 

    I just don't see the point in trying, I couldn't get myself to college today because I just didn't want people to have to see me, ย they don't deserve that and I'm sorry I can't make myself look good for them :/

    Thanks floxy I was doing a bit better today, ย had a poke around the charity shops and found a lovely dress but when I put it on, I just really struggled.ย 

    I'm not meant for dresses I think, my horrible unfeminine figure says otherwise.ย 

    Wish I avoided mirrors today but they were everywhere. I sound ridiculous :/ just gonna curl up in a cocoon and try to forget about my physical appearance x

    ๐ŸŒˆPositive thoughts๐ŸŒˆ

    "What's gonna be left of the world if you're not in it?" ~ Bastille

    "Here's to the ones that we got
    Cheers to the wish you were here, but you're not" ~ Maroon 5
    [Deleted User]
  • fadedangelfadedangel Posts: 263 Budding Regular
    Had the worst evening and night. No sleep whatsoever and I am an emotional wreck, I donโ€™t think this is going to be a good day today. I just want to cry but I canโ€™t.ย 

    Lifeโ€™s so hard, I just need a hug :(

    ยซ I have been through hell but the best is yet to come ยซย 
    ShaunieLaine
  • [Deleted User][Deleted User] Posts: 0 Literally just got here
    Laine said:
    Floxy said:
    Laine said:
    My BDD is really playing up today for some reason.ย 

    I just don't see the point in trying, I couldn't get myself to college today because I just didn't want people to have to see me, ย they don't deserve that and I'm sorry I can't make myself look good for them :/

    Thanks floxy I was doing a bit better today, ย had a poke around the charity shops and found a lovely dress but when I put it on, I just really struggled.ย 

    I'm not meant for dresses I think, my horrible unfeminine figure says otherwise.ย 

    Wish I avoided mirrors today but they were everywhere. I sound ridiculous :/ just gonna curl up in a cocoon and try to forget about my physical appearance x
    I know you hate your mirror and void it; it's only natural, but sometime, stand in front of it and list 3 things you like about your body: eg. your eyes and the depth of their colour; your hair; your fingernails. And then think of 3 best personal qualities that you really like about yourself. I got our youngster Peggy to do this today and she felt quite good about herself.

    I hope you feel better tomorrow, @Laine

    I'm not great with dresses, either. But they have to be tailored at the waist to look flattering on me. But charity shops are also a great place to find bargains, and even dirt cheap novels and hardcover biographies that would otherwise have cost a small fortune.


    Today though, has not been wonderful. For some reason I've been bursting into tears and for no tangible reason. If only I could determine why. :/
    Laine
  • LaineLaine Llama Mama Gone for GooPosts: 2,307 Boards Champion
    Thanks very much @Floxy i actually appreciate it <3

    sometimes there need not be a reason, sometimes we just have one of those days be it because we're sad or just need a good cry.ย 

    we're here for you just take it easy and have a cuppa and relax <3

    ๐ŸŒˆPositive thoughts๐ŸŒˆ

    "What's gonna be left of the world if you're not in it?" ~ Bastille

    "Here's to the ones that we got
    Cheers to the wish you were here, but you're not" ~ Maroon 5
    [Deleted User]Shaunie
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