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im going out so i wont be able to talk but hopefully someone will be able to talk to you @eylah
Hey @eylah I can talk if you want, how you coping with the heat?
How are you ❤️?
Im so sorry you're suffering, we're all here for you though. I'm struggling with the heat. We are here if you need to chat or anything though ♥️
Hope you enjoyed it @eylah
i will!!
aw you remembered thankyou its at 2:15!
im still not alright but im not at crisis point like i was last friday. thanks for checking up on me, i appreciate it
@River i know it doesn't seem like it, but it's the hope things get better. You might not feel that you have that hope, but there is always a chance things improve. Worst case scenario for me is upping, and leaving the country, leaving my life here and going to either Australia or the US to start again. What's the worst that could happen? There's always the chance of starting over and beginning anew, or of things in your life currently to improve. It seems impossible after so long, but let me put this is context for you, i turned 23 and didn't have a single friend, and hardly any social interaction in my life prior to the mix. Never had one person care about my wellbeing. Yet here i have friends, and even the mix messaged me and spoke about my wellbeing. Even after a long time, when things seem hopeless, there is always a chance, no matter how remote, things get better.
I wish i could say something more that would instantly make things better or make you feel better, but i can't. All i can say is things can change after years of hell. It's a question of time, and how long it takes. This will sound silly, but my mentality changed a lot growing up, felt very similar to that, and all i could do was go emotionally numb from the pain of it, and start to find small moments of joy as my lifeline. Wingfest once a year for a few hours was mostly it. I think of it as holding on. It can be your hobby of ariel hoop, or art, or anything that gives you enjoyment, and cling onto that until things change.
I know it's mostly useless advice, but it's all i can say. Sending a hug your way friend.
@toffuna101 sorry i've not been that active these last few days, but i'm so happy to hear that your doing better at least than you were. I know it's not a lot, but the fact that your in a slightly better place, even if it's still not a good place, than you were several days ago is a small victory. You improve each time your better than you were the day before. Can i ask how A&E went?
@eylah of course i remembered, what kind of twat would i be if i didn't
I know you won't be active and see this until after, but you are such a strong person, because i know how scary it must be for you, and i know your worries and fears about it, but your still pushing through in spite of that fear, and that is textbook bravery. Proud of you.
basically since im 16 i had to go to the adult A&E and it was pretty shit. the children's A&E was way better. the nurses didnt care if an elderly man was struggling on a wheelchair. he fell on the floor so paramedics had to move him. at least camhs were somewhat helpful by giving me ARC Rapid Response. im still under 18 so they had to come to me. but ARC Rapid Response is just like any other service. when i stated that i was suicidal to them they said "have you tried distraction techniques like colouring?" and im like hmmm why didnt i try that before? i mean i dont really blame them, what else can they do? camhs shouldve sent a referral in for me to go to a psychiatric hospital as an informal (voluntary) patient. their reasoning for not doing so was because being sent to a psychiatric hospital is a last resort. @DonnerKebab
@River i swear on my life, that you river, from everything i've seen of you on the Mix, and for all the kindness you've shown me, and your life story that you explained to me, i swear you are an amazing, resilient and strong human being, and i will say that till i'm blue in the face 1000 times over.
Years of trauma and systemic failure have destroyed your self worth which is understandable, and has made it hard for you to see yourself in a good light, but from an outsider, seeing everything objectively, you truly are worth everything and are a truly astonishing human. And one day, you'll see that.