Anybody want to vent or chat about anything?

Redemption · May 31

@DonnerKebab you ok today? Got any plans?

Rose113 · May 31

Anyone around?

Sian321 · May 31

@eylah , thank you for your messages, and it sounds like today has also been very hard. That feeling of not having any purpose in particular sounds so difficult - it can bring up a lot of dread and anxiety when we feel directionless or so much is uncertain.

Would it feel helpful to share some more about that feeling of not knowing your purpose? We're here and we're listening.

Thank you too for letting us know that physically you're safe, though I hear that doesn't take away from just how tough this feels emotionally. It's like a battle going on inside and its exhausting. If you were to feel unsafe, can I ask who you might reach out to? I wonder if there are any helplines or mental health professionals who you tend to contact in those moments?

We care about your safety and you're doing so well to post here too. All of us here on Community are here for you.

eylah · May 31

hey @Sian321 if i needed to id reach out to 111 option 2 bc tbh even though theyre not the best i guess they’re better then the others. tbh its just i am physically and mentally struggling and i cant work or anything due to physical health etc so im just stuck in this world and feeling like what am i actually on this planet for? bc i cant be like a normal 19 yr old i cant do anything i enjoy so im just stuck in a bubble rly. but i am safe im just a lil sad :’) but thankyou for checking up on me.

eylah · May 31

Rose113 wrote: »

Anyone around?

im here @Rose113 are you okay?

Sian321 · May 31

@Rose113 , thank you so much too for opening up as you have about the incidents that took place in 2023 and the lasting impact this has had on you. As others have shared here in this thread, that sounds like an extreamly hard time, and crying for weeks in the way you describe sounds so painful. I can really hear how the incident shook the very foundations of how you show up here on Community and what feels possible when it comes to opening up in this space.

We will drop you a DM to support you further, however, please know that what you do or do not choose to share is within your control and we respect your boundaries.

It makes sense that June / July feels esspecially hard as the 'anniversary' of this incident approaches too. Can I ask, day-to-day, what has been helpiung you take care of yourself as these anxieties get louder? I know you've been taking some really gorgeous walks with lovely Barney which is so nice. What is the most helpful thing about being around him? He seems like the sweetest little fluff!

Rose113 · May 31

@eylah hey, not really but might just curl up in a ball and cry tbh

Sian321 · May 31

@eylah , I hear you, and we're here to be with you in that sadness rather than try to change it. What you've described really does sound so hard - not being able to work and feeling stuck in this world wondering what your purpose is here. Existential questions like that can be so deeply human and also, agonising when we don't know the answers. What do you think you might like for your purpose to be? Or is there anything day-to-day / any relationships day-to-day that help give a sense of meaning?

You're doing so well to talk about this, and its positive you know those services are there if you do feel unsafe.

Rose113 · May 31

@Sian321 guessing I’m in trouble?

eylah · May 31

shannon_164 wrote: »

i’m really sorry you’re feeling this way @eylah - it sounds really difficult for you! it’s ok to have days like this, and you’re definitely not alone. your feelings are valid, and it’s important to be gentle with yourself right now!

pls remember, you do matter, even if it’s hard to see it today

sry for only getting back to you until now i have been napping bc im just very tired aha. i rly appreciate your support so much shannon you rly are a kind soul, you’re the most sweetest and most kindest ever thankyou so much

.

@Rose113 its okay to cry, were here for you

i care abt you so much!

Sian321 · May 31

@Rose113 ,

@Sian321 guessing I’m in trouble?

You're not in trouble at all! You're allowed to share what's on your mind and how you're feeling. The DM would be just to check in and offer emotional support.

Rose113 · May 31

I’m being insulted, at a restaurant and someone insisting on taking pictures and now there saying I’m not smiling and saying I look like a frog and stuff when it is my smile and now I’m even more on a verge of tears

DonnerKebab · May 31

@Rose113 Screw them rose. You don't have to smile for them. You don't have to do anything for them, you don't owe them anything. Can i ask who is insulting you?

Rose113 · May 31

@DonnerKebab there meant to be family

they wonder why my self esteem is so crap because all I get is this

DonnerKebab · May 31

@Rose113 well, you deserve a better family than that. Bunch of utter pillock's by the sounds of it. I know this seems cliché to say, but what that bunch of ingrates say is not definitive of you and your worth.

shannon_164 · May 31

hey @Rose113 🙂

i’m so sorry you’re going through that right now. you absolutely don’t deserve to be treated that way, it’s cruel and totally uncalled for! your smile is your smile, and anyone making fun of it is just being mean and disrespectful. are you able to step away from the situation at all? your comfort and peace come first.

we’re all here for you

eylah · May 31

Sian321 wrote: »

@eylah , I hear you, and we're here to be with you in that sadness rather than try to change it. What you've described really does sound so hard - not being able to work and feeling stuck in this world wondering what your purpose is here. Existential questions like that can be so deeply human and also, agonising when we don't know the answers. What do you think you might like for your purpose to be? Or is there anything day-to-day / any relationships day-to-day that help give a sense of meaning?

You're doing so well to talk about this, and its positive you know those services are there if you do feel unsafe.

i mean i have no friends noone likes me i just get bullied on by anyone who i try to make friends with so idk what i want out of life. i have noone i cant do anything i enjoy bc of physical illness its just shit rly my life is just shit.

Rose113 · May 31

Thank you @shannon_164 we are back home now and I’m just sobbing in the bathroom 🥲

shannon_164 · May 31

Rose113 wrote: »

Thank you @shannon_164 we are back home now and I’m just sobbing in the bathroom 🥲

aw @Rose113 you shouldn’t be left feeling that way! do you want to talk about it? we’re here to listen to you, but of course there is no pressure at all to share if you don’t feel up to it

shannon_164 · May 31

hey @eylah - i’m really sorry you’re feeling this way. i want you to know i do care about you, and it hurts to hear that you’re going through so much. you’re not alone, even if it feels like it right now. it’s ok to not have everything figured out or to feel lost, especially when you’re dealing with both physical pain and people not treating you right!

you don’t deserve to be bullied or dismissed, and the fact that you’re still here, still reaching out, says a lot about your strength, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. we’re all here for you, even just to sit with you in this if that’s what you need. you don’t have to carry this all alone, ever.

i’m so so proud of you

eylah · May 31

anyone want to talk? hope you’re all okay!

Rose113 · May 31

My new leggings came from Vinted, I got SHEIN ribbed leggings 2 pairs for £3.40 when on SHEIN there £12 each, I know there not new but they look and feel so new

I have some tops coming to next few days too

shannon_164 · May 31

ooo that’s exciting @Rose113 !! i love vinted so much - that’s where i order all my jellycats from and they all come like new for so much less than buying a brand new one yay

Rose113 · May 31

@shannon_164 fr Vinted is the best aha, I have 4 tops coming that are 1.30 for all 4 like that’s a bargain aha

Rose113 · May 31

Is anyone watching the bgt final

DonnerKebab · May 31

Doctor who > BGT. Sorry @Rose113

Rose113 · May 31

U okay @DonnerKebab

shannon_164 · May 31

i really want to watch it @Rose113 but i’m trying to get my mum out of the house so i can make cupcakes for tomorrow as it’s her birthday so don’t want her to know until tomorrow, she has places to be tonight anyways but keeps finding distractions as she approaches the door🤣

Rose113 · May 31

@shannon_164 aww aha I hope you can get her out soon

then you can bake till your hearts content

Redemption · May 31

eylah wrote: »

Sian321 wrote: »

@eylah , I hear you, and we're here to be with you in that sadness rather than try to change it. What you've described really does sound so hard - not being able to work and feeling stuck in this world wondering what your purpose is here. Existential questions like that can be so deeply human and also, agonising when we don't know the answers. What do you think you might like for your purpose to be? Or is there anything day-to-day / any relationships day-to-day that help give a sense of meaning?

You're doing so well to talk about this, and its positive you know those services are there if you do feel unsafe.

i mean i have no friends noone likes me i just get bullied on by anyone who i try to make friends with so idk what i want out of life. i have noone i cant do anything i enjoy bc of physical illness its just shit rly my life is just shit.

We all like and care about you

Anybody want to vent or chat about anything?

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