Anybody want to vent or chat about anything?

eylah · May 29

DonnerKebab wrote: »

@eylah I'm fine thanks. how are you feeling?

And i know this is a bit out of the blue, but I just want to remind you that we all do care about you, honestly. I think you spend so long being kind to others you forget to be kind to yourself sometimes.

im struggling tonight quite a lot my mind is fucked. sry for swearing

thankyou for your kind words.

DonnerKebab · May 29

@eylah Don't apologise for being open and honest with how you are. And it's no worries for that, i'm just speaking the truth that everybody knows and thinks about you. That you are an amazing person.
So, what's bothering you friend? What's on your mind?

DonnerKebab · May 29

@Redemption No problem mate. I was just speaking the honest truth. And i'm fine thanks. just surviving you know. How about you? Still nervous about the course?

eylah · May 29

@DonnerKebab i don’t want to bother you though

. just struggling with flashbacks that happened recently etc and it’s just playing on my mind. i am just a crappy person.

DonnerKebab · May 29

@eylah You'll never bother me with anything. I made this thread for people like you to vent and be open with everything, and quite honestly, you've been so kind to others like me, you deserve that same kindness back. And second of all, no you are not a crappy person. nobody as kind as you are is a crappy person.

So, the flashbacks. Do you want to talk about them? it might help to process them a bit. I'm here to talk you through them if you want. I'm not very good company, but it beats nothing i reckon.

eylah · May 29

@DonnerKebab idk how to even explain i am just having memories of what happened replay in my mind and its draining me so much. Im so tired from this 😕. thankyou for listening.

eylah · May 29

sry for not replying sooner @DonnerKebab i am not being notified when you @ me

even though i have notifications on.

DonnerKebab · May 29

@eylah It's been the same for me for a few days with the notifications. no worries. Can i ask what it's replaying if your comfortable sharing it? I can understand if it's a hard memory being replayed again and again. it would make anybody drained.

eylah · May 29

something that happened to me. it wasnt nice at all

. hope you’re ok i am not getting notifications.

independent_ · May 29

I’m having the same issue with notifications, it’s so annoying!

Just my check in to send hugs to you all - I’m sorry you’re all having such a hard time.

I haven’t been online much because frankly I’ve been finding it a bit overwhelming, with everything that’s gone on here recently and just a bit of what I might sometimes refer to as support fatigue, I’m putting so much into helping other people at the moment that I forget I have to stop and think

so sorry i haven’t been replying as much.

DonnerKebab · May 29

@eylah If you don't feel comfortable sharing this, it's fine, only say what your comfortable with. But, do you think there's a chance it could be a sort of ptsd flashback, recounting a traumatic situation for you over and over?

eylah · May 29

@DonnerKebab i think that’s the case yeah it’s rly not helping me at all rn i cant sleep and im just rly drained rn. i need to sleep bc im in pain physically bc of my health conditions which am having surgery for soon and now my brain is working overtime

.

DonnerKebab · May 29

@independent_ Don't worry about not replying that much. Take a bit of time for yourself, you deserve it.

independent_ · May 29

Thank you @DonnerKebab

I’m away this weekend but hopefully after that I will come back on here more. I think sometimes my brain tells me I’m doing too much without outright saying “you’re doing too much”.

DonnerKebab · May 29

@eylah have you tried sleeping tablets by any chance? They might help to put you to sleep a bit quicker than normal. You can get over the counter ones even.

And for your ptsd, i don't know much about it generally, but have you told a therapist or gp about the flashbacks and it possibly being ptsd? They tend to jump to when they hear ptsd suggested.

eylah · May 29

i have eupd and cptsd so it makes sense tbh. and i have tried like herbal sleeping meds but idk they just wake me up in middle of night and don’t help. but i will have to see what other options i have. thankyou so much!

DonnerKebab · May 29

@independent_ Your awesome Independent. Have a lovely break this weekend. And yeah, i know what you mean. it's a recipe for burnout sadly if you don't take breaks from it. I'm glad your looking after yourself.

DonnerKebab · May 29

@eylah have you tried melatonin tablets? My brother being mentally disabled, isn't able to do sleep routines and would stay awake for as long as he humanly could before falling asleep. We got melatonin tablets from the doctor which took a few hours to work but worked wonders, putting him out at like 9 or 10pm, and he would wake up about 7ish. It might be worth asking your doctors for something similar.

eylah · May 30

oh i rly hate melatonin! they wake me up at 3-4am if i take them. the only meds ive ever had sleep wise is promethazine they helped but idk i hate tablets so find it hard.

DonnerKebab · May 30

@eylah It's a tricky one. I don't really know many other sleeping options. Do you put a blue light filter on your phone or computer before going to bed? Because blue light from screens can mess up the bodies natural sleep patterns.

eylah · May 30

i don’t know how to do that? 😅

DonnerKebab · May 30

@eylah do you have an iphone or android? And don't worry. i did a degree in computer science and didn't figure this out until a year ago.

Sian321 · May 30

Just dropping in here - it sounds like last night might have been really, really distressing @eylah. That sounds so scary and tiring to go through.

Thank you @DonnerKebab too for your words, and I noticed you mentioning you're 'surviving' - we're here also if you'd like to share what you're going through or seek support.

@eylah , I will share below a few resources which might feel supportive around flashbacks:

https://www.ptsduk.org/what-is-ptsd/understanding-ptsd-flashbacks-and-triggers/

https://napac.org.uk/flashbacks/

https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/types-of-mental-health-problems/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd-and-complex-ptsd/self-care/

How are you feeling this morning? What might you need today, whether thats rest and relaxation? Distraction? Connection with others?

eylah · May 30

hi so sry @DonnerKebab i fell asleep! i have a iphone hope youre ok!

thankyou @Sian321 i will have a look at the links thankyou so much

DonnerKebab · May 30

@eylah no problem. I'm happy you managed to get some sleep finally.

So for your iPhone, i think you go into settings, display and brightness, and i think they call it night shift. I only use android so i'm not 100% of apple's way of doing it, but it will block out most blue light from your phone, which is responsible for supressing the brains natural sleep cycle. Any screens also supress it, especially before bed. Screen brightness too is a factor. Some things you may just want to try as it might help.

eylah · May 30

ah ok @DonnerKebab thankyou so much i hope youre okay

DonnerKebab · May 30

@eylah I'm doing fine thanks. Thanks for asking. How are feeling today?

eylah · May 30

sry im not getting notifications at all for the mix

im not feeling very well physically so its making me feel rubbish. hugs 🫂

DonnerKebab · May 31

Hey everyone, i'm online for the next few hours if anybody wants to vent or just talk. Please don't be afraid to talk a little bit, even if it's just a bit of banter or talking about things you've done today.

River · May 31

I just threw my drink across the floor running from a moth 😂😭

Anybody want to vent or chat about anything?

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