hi. so idk what to say but. last night was really hard for me and basically police was called. i contacted a helpline as i was feeling unssfe and i left group chat as i know that was not the place for me and it isnt crisis. so i did go for the walk but. it ended badly. i didng know police called so was shocked when they told me to stop. i had a panic attack and. they lied to me saying that the van was needed and only van avalieble at the time. but with me was. 2 vans 2cars. so they lied ro me to get me in the van. they know that causs me distress. i had told them i sh but they laughed at me. i didnt want them putting their hands on me so i got in the van but. they were rly horrible. i got home early morning today. but my dad was askeep at time so police woke him up. he wasnt happy and we are on bad terms now. but i am feeling upset with how i was treated. i hatw it. i didnt deserve that. im safe now. it is hard for me atm.

. sry if i caused concern this morning. im sry.