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Its all too much
JJLemon18
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Hi. I really need a safe place to vent because I can barely cope with life atm...
After doing really well in the first half of my uni semester this year, it all fell apart really bad again. Last coursework I returned wasn't even 1/3 done but after staring at it for hours my brain told me I can't do it and so I gave up. I didn't understand any of it, and I was stressing too much. I just wanted to completely forget about it at that point. I am so behind in my final year project but I have barely any time left, I know I'm gonna struggle to complete it on time (yet alone get a decent grade).
This situation keeps happening again and again, and I'm sick of it. I wish I had more strength to keep going. Why do I always find things so hard to understand? Why is life so hard for me? At this rate I will always struggle in life. I don't see anything after uni, its so vast and uncertain. And I know I won't be able to manage it. I genuinely can't imagine having any job. Its scary. Its even more scary realising how old I already am...
If that wasn't tough enough, I recently found out my mum might have cancer (though unintrusive), and I just found out my dad is seriously ill too. They will both be having surgeries in the next few weeks, and its so scary. My mum has been crying literally non stop the past two days The atmosphere is shit, and my brain won't stop buzzing. I can't think and I can't concentrate on anything at all. It all feels so distant and faint, as if my brain can't even process anything. I'm so worried, about everything, including my family's health the most, they're the only people I have near in my life. I'm also really worried about my own health, it isn't great either.
I just want to live in peace, is that too much to ask...
Anyways, thanks for reading my little vent. I'm not expecting any replies or anything. I've been writing everything in my diary, but it can only help so much.
After doing really well in the first half of my uni semester this year, it all fell apart really bad again. Last coursework I returned wasn't even 1/3 done but after staring at it for hours my brain told me I can't do it and so I gave up. I didn't understand any of it, and I was stressing too much. I just wanted to completely forget about it at that point. I am so behind in my final year project but I have barely any time left, I know I'm gonna struggle to complete it on time (yet alone get a decent grade).
This situation keeps happening again and again, and I'm sick of it. I wish I had more strength to keep going. Why do I always find things so hard to understand? Why is life so hard for me? At this rate I will always struggle in life. I don't see anything after uni, its so vast and uncertain. And I know I won't be able to manage it. I genuinely can't imagine having any job. Its scary. Its even more scary realising how old I already am...
If that wasn't tough enough, I recently found out my mum might have cancer (though unintrusive), and I just found out my dad is seriously ill too. They will both be having surgeries in the next few weeks, and its so scary. My mum has been crying literally non stop the past two days The atmosphere is shit, and my brain won't stop buzzing. I can't think and I can't concentrate on anything at all. It all feels so distant and faint, as if my brain can't even process anything. I'm so worried, about everything, including my family's health the most, they're the only people I have near in my life. I'm also really worried about my own health, it isn't great either.
I just want to live in peace, is that too much to ask...
Anyways, thanks for reading my little vent. I'm not expecting any replies or anything. I've been writing everything in my diary, but it can only help so much.
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Sending you a big big hug,
Amy22
We are here for you and sending hugs
Why is life so hard?? Surely I'm not the only one going through such a tough situation, how do other people manage it? Why is the world so difficult for people who are struggling with stuff out of their control??
Ugh I'm feeling so dissociated and paralysed. I'm incredibly tired but I can't sleep. And all I feel like doing is lying down and staring at the celling all day...
I suppose the other people struggling are trying to keep it hidden, and that might be why it seems like everyone is managing fine? I know it’s hard but try not to compare yourself to other people - everyone copes differently and everyone’s going through different things.
Because everything is set up by, and for, people with huge advantages. I often feel like there’s no breathing room when things go wrong. It’s so rubbish.
I just wanted to notice the fact you said you did really well earlier this year - that’s amazing, and it shows that you really are capable of more than what you can do right now. I really hope the people at your uni (the tutors or whatever lol) can see that.
The future can feel really overwhelming but I suppose you just have to think of it one step at a time. I can’t imagine ever being able to get a job, but I can imagine the first baby steps towards that. Maybe try looking at it like that?
I know pretty much nothing about money, but is there any support you could look into at uni with that?