Feeling a little teary (tw: possible trauma and self harm mentions)
I'm not quite sure if it's hormones or an overwhelming amount of emotion but I told someone my trauma story today for the first time and I guess ever since then I've felt super emotional. I know trauma is something that triggers many emotions even after the actual traumatic event, but I guess it felt like reliving the experience of the last 2 years. I love this community but sometimes some of the posts move me and I guess it's because I'm quite sensitive or I guess more feeling about that kinda thing, but I just wanted to share that. Sometimes you go through something you didn't at the time realise was so painful but it hits you later and when you know that you can't confront the people involved it's quite hurtful and difficult to move past all the emotions. Sometimes I feel like I'll be too much for my current partner because I fear my past so heavily that talking to him makes me fear things will end the same way they did with my previous partner. Even though my current partner is incredibly sweet and hurts when I hurt and loves when I love. I guess it's not so simple to move on from the past when you've been broken over and over. I'm not fragile. I pick myself up and dust myself off every time but I do have to admit that sometimes I feel like too much.