Driving and money.
My sister is offering me £500 to spend on learning to drive and when i get a job that gives me proper money then i give it to her. And she says its not like im her friend. She will know she will get it back at one point and £500 hardly makes a dent in her account atm.
It is a nice offer but i don’t know what to say about it. I know it sounds nice but it is actually probably mostly for selfish reasons. She said she needs motivation to do her driving and if i was doing mine then that would motivate her and would actually get some where. Which then just makes me feel bad cause i feel like im dragging her back cause she is waiting for me when i dont even really wanna do it. Cause we are twins and she seems to think we need to do these life stages at literally the same time. Driving isnt really something i care about atm but my sister seems to really want me to start learning and i dont want to hold her back. And even my older sister is saying its a good idea as would branch to more job opportunities too. And i don’t know really know what im suppose to say to it cause it would stress me out knowing i owe my sister £500 and i dont barely have a job. I do have a job but it gives me £250 a month and i barely have any money for myself and money goes very fast even on basic things and give my dad money too. So would never be able to pay her back with the money i earn atm. And with this cvirus pretty hard to get a job anytime soon. I would like to drive at some point in my life but its not my mentallity atm plus it scares the shit out of me that you could literally kill someone/people by driving
And just kinda wanted peoples opinions on it
“ i think that deep down you still think life is worth living. It’s no where near over for you. You’re in pain. The thing you lost, Is the same thing that can stop that pain”