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  • JellyelephantJellyelephant Bpd bitch ✌🏼 Posts: 773 Part of The Mix Family
    Hey guys 

    thanks, I’m still waiting to hear from my nana test results but her appt with the consultant isn’t until the start of July. 

    I only drank 3 times since last Monday so that’s good for me. I am trying to get in a good self care routine. Made me laugh today though because I went into sainsburies to get my fags and as soon as I walked up to the till she was like “shall I get your vodka? Russian standard 1 litre?” Hahaha u know it’s bad when the shop staff think you want a litre of vodka every time you go in haha she was actually shocked that I didn’t buy any. Oh my days how embarrassing. Also the woman from the pharmacy who knows me (COs I have to go in there every week to pick up my meds) was standing right there next to me so that’s peak 
    The sun will rise and we will try again 
  • JellyelephantJellyelephant Bpd bitch ✌🏼 Posts: 773 Part of The Mix Family
    Ah these past few days been so stressful and I actually thought I was dying. I couldn’t breath and felt terrible so I rang my GP this morning and got an urgent appt this morning. I saw my regular doctor and she was really nice to me and checked me physically and said I was ok physically and she thinks am having panic attacks and very anxious. She prescribe me propranolol on top of my other meds and said it should help with my physical symptoms that are distressing me and making me feel like am dying. I am grateful for her being so kind and supportive and reassuring me, she knows me well as I see her a lot so is good. 

    I asked her her about the alcohol too because I wanted to stop drinking altogether but my alcohol worker said I can’t and my doctor agreed with him :( I have to reduce slowly instead... but had no alcohol left so I’ve had to spend the last of my money on vodka so I don’t die and so I can’t afford to go to therapy this week. 

    I actually feel TERRIBLE 
    The sun will rise and we will try again 
  • Millie2787Millie2787 🐶 💜 Posts: 3,017 Boards Guru
    Hi @Jellyelephant

    To start with you should be so proud of yourself for recognising something was up and ringing the GP to get an appointment. ❤️

    Was also good to see that you had the appointment with your regular doctor so you think that helped you to feel A little  calmer about going to the GP ? 

    How to do you feel about being on propranolol to help with the physical symptoms of the anxiety ? 

    I know it’s difficult when you want to completely stop drinking but you have to remember that both your GP and your Alcohol support worker deal with this kind of things each day so will now know how to reduce things safely for you.

    Your doing really well Jelly . Stay strong ❤️
    Sometimes all you need is one person to believe in you , for you to begin to believe in yourself.
  • JellyelephantJellyelephant Bpd bitch ✌🏼 Posts: 773 Part of The Mix Family
    My nana has lung cancer. So sad. Duno what to say or do 
    The sun will rise and we will try again 
  • JellyelephantJellyelephant Bpd bitch ✌🏼 Posts: 773 Part of The Mix Family
    I’m sad and can’t sleep 
    The sun will rise and we will try again 
  • ShaunieShaunie England 🏠Posts: 9,314 Supreme Poster
    Sending hugs @Jellyelephant xxx <3. Im sorry. Wish knew what to say. 
    if you have the strength to sustain anorexia you have the strength to overcome it
  • Butterfly23Butterfly23 Miniposter England Posts: 817 Trailblazer
    Hugs @Jellyelephant

    We are all here for you x
  • ClaraOswaldClaraOswald TardisPosts: 144 Boards Initiate
    Well done for Monday! Treasure the achievements, you are taking posative steps x Dont be embarassed about the lady at the till, I bet she has loads of othet customers like you x I believe you can do this x <3
    My feelings are bigger on the inside. People get me wrong.
     "Sometimes the only choices you have are wrong ones but you still have to choose"-Peter Capaldi, 12th Doctor  ❤️

  • Spook98Spook98 UKPosts: 262 The Mix Regular
    Hope you and your nana are doing as well as you can be, I have experience with some of the things you're going through and it's really tough. But unfortunately sometimes the hardest things are out of your control. Some things you can change though, as hard as it may be, and the steps you've taken to do so are inspiring and you should be proud.
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