Tough week

Jellyelephant

Hey guys 

thanks, I’m still waiting to hear from my nana test results but her appt with the consultant isn’t until the start of July. 

I only drank 3 times since last Monday so that’s good for me. I am trying to get in a good self care routine. Made me laugh today though because I went into sainsburies to get my fags and as soon as I walked up to the till she was like “shall I get your vodka? Russian standard 1 litre?” Hahaha u know it’s bad when the shop staff think you want a litre of vodka every time you go in haha she was actually shocked that I didn’t buy any. Oh my days how embarrassing. Also the woman from the pharmacy who knows me (COs I have to go in there every week to pick up my meds) was standing right there next to me so that’s peak 

Jellyelephant

Ah these past few days been so stressful and I actually thought I was dying. I couldn’t breath and felt terrible so I rang my GP this morning and got an urgent appt this morning. I saw my regular doctor and she was really nice to me and checked me physically and said I was ok physically and she thinks am having panic attacks and very anxious. She prescribe me propranolol on top of my other meds and said it should help with my physical symptoms that are distressing me and making me feel like am dying. I am grateful for her being so kind and supportive and reassuring me, she knows me well as I see her a lot so is good. 

I asked her her about the alcohol too because I wanted to stop drinking altogether but my alcohol worker said I can’t and my doctor agreed with him I have to reduce slowly instead... but had no alcohol left so I’ve had to spend the last of my money on vodka so I don’t die and so I can’t afford to go to therapy this week. 

I actually feel TERRIBLE 

Millie2787

Hi @Jellyelephant

To start with you should be so proud of yourself for recognising something was up and ringing the GP to get an appointment. ❤️

Was also good to see that you had the appointment with your regular doctor so you think that helped you to feel A little  calmer about going to the GP ? 

How to do you feel about being on propranolol to help with the physical symptoms of the anxiety ? 

I know it’s difficult when you want to completely stop drinking but you have to remember that both your GP and your Alcohol support worker deal with this kind of things each day so will now know how to reduce things safely for you.

Your doing really well Jelly . Stay strong ❤️

Jellyelephant

My nana has lung cancer. So sad. Duno what to say or do 

Jellyelephant

I’m sad and can’t sleep 

Siena

Sending hugs @Jellyelephant xxx . Im sorry. Wish knew what to say. 

Former Member

Hugs @Jellyelephant

We are all here for you x

Former Member

Well done for Monday! Treasure the achievements, you are taking posative steps x Dont be embarassed about the lady at the till, I bet she has loads of othet customers like you x I believe you can do this x

Past User

Hope you and your nana are doing as well as you can be, I have experience with some of the things you're going through and it's really tough. But unfortunately sometimes the hardest things are out of your control. Some things you can change though, as hard as it may be, and the steps you've taken to do so are inspiring and you should be proud.