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I did have a couple of mates but when I got to year ten they turned around to me and said they didnt like me anymore, so I hit one in the face with my shoe heal.
No one at school could really stick a solid label on me, some saw me as the bible basher, others as the drugged up slapper, then there were the ones that saw me as the satan worshiping goth. I didnt really fit in with anyone.
Now I'm at college I get on with most of the girls in my class, they call me spooky cos I wear alot of black but they accept me for who I am and can see past what I wear. I love college only bad thing about it is some of the teachers.
In college I was really popular though... A bit of a stoner.
haha, amen brother
It seemed to change when I got into 6th form, when puberty had finished torturing my body and I was good looking enough for some of the guys to say 'hey, she's actually quite fit' and people started to respect me. Before that I was just 'Fat Ilora' but in 6th form I'd changed quite drastically with the help of the gym and weightwatchers, and was more popular than I'd ever been. It was pretty cool in 6th form. I was also the only goth in 6th form, which seemed to attract more attention and for some reason people took me more seriously. I wish I was still in 6th form!
Ilora x
Backstabbing is the best ! You shouldn't miss out on it ! :cool:
i was never one to judge or label people because i hated it when people did it to me!i had no enemies and was friends with everyone. aww i miss those high school days!
There were always groups in my year, but they generally mixed pretty well, so I had my good set of mates I did everything with, mates I got wrecked with, mates I talked about music with and mates I played football with. My girlfriend was even in another group so I got to know her friends as well. It meant I never had a big group of good friends, but I prefered it that way because I need just a few friends who can be totally trusted.
I found the best way to avoid the bullying was to assert yourself without bullying in turn. So way back in first year when this fat bastard was trying to get everyone to give him their bus change on a regular basis, I beat the shit outta him on the bus and that was the end of it for a lot of the time. But even now I'd talk to him in the street, so it's no big thing, it's just setting rules down.
At college I am the one that can talk to everyone, and yet still has a little group of friends . It was weird on the Spanish trip though...I was just hanging around everyone because my little group don't do Spanish
wouldnt change a thing tho. great times.
Secondary school, I sort of had two groups of friends on the go over this period, one were the swots (and I was the most normal/most dumb swot!) and later I found out they were fake and didn't actually especially like me at all, more felt sorry for me. The other were my two best friends at secondary school, the first time I truly had friends I knew I could count on and that I didn't always have to be a doormat and take hassle off so-called "friends". Unfortunately they both left after GCSEs and one I only knew from 2nd year and the other from 4th year. But I'm still in touch with one of them, in fact I sent him a birthday card today! I was still a teacher's pet but broadly speaking I think most people liked me and I think I'm remembered by people I went to school with for being a bit eccentric...
Uni's been a bit weird to be honest. I've also lost the motivation to work, so I'm just bobbing along trying to keep my head above water. I know a fair few people but just seem to be stuck chatting small talk to them because I have so few hours to actually get to know anyone. I mostly hung out with housemates last year but then slowly over this year I've got to see the darker sides they kept hidden last year, so because of past experience I ditched them because they were negative influences in my life. My crowd of friends seems to be getting smaller but I'm getting more trusting in the friends I do have and keep meaning to make the effort to make new ones... doesn't help when you totally hate uni though!