Afraid to eat in front of people

Why do I hate eating in front of other people. NEw friends, guys, I dont like it. I am only comfortable around my family, or around my best friends. It's like the idea of going to get food with someone is so intimate, I hate intimacy and automatically I just decide I don't want to eat in front of someone else. It makes me so anxious. I shut it right down.

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Azziman

Hi @unknowngirly777, thank you for sharing this with us. I can hear how eating in front of other people makes you feel anxious, unless it's someone you're comfortable and close with. I wonder, do you remember when you first noticed doing this? You mention that you may find getting food with someone as intimate - could you explain a little more as to why you feel this way? We're here to listen to you.

unknowngirly777

@Azziman thanks for replying. I don’t remember how long ago I noticed this happening. But since I was young, I was always quite skinny. Only until a few years ago, I started to put on weight and this has also made me feel horrible about myself. I’m fine and normal, I just wish I was slimmer. I’ve began to cut out sugar and tell myself no sugar now. Which I find very very difficult because sugar is my comfort food. I also am trying to stop binge/comfort eating which I struggle with.

Perhaps this started a few years ago, when I first started talking to my ex. Only since then is when I noticed it. I always told him I don’t want to on a date with you, and I never once went out on a solo date with him, or ate in front of him, unless it was a snack. At work I told him I’m going somewhere else, once I’ve finished eating you can come.
Now looking back on it…what the hell?

If someone can give me some solutions and let me know why I do this please. I literally don’t take offence to anything, so please do not sugar coat anything. Thank you all.