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Feeling awful

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  • SebSeb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    Yeah
  • KatieKatie Staff Posts: 2,133 Boards Champion
    Hey @Seb would you like to send us a DM to discuss what happened in chat yesterday? I'm mindful the DM space is more of a private space to discuss this. How does that sound?
  • SebSeb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    I guess yeah.
  • eylaheylah Community Connector Posts: 10,407 An Original Mixlorian
    Seb wrote: »
    Yeah

    i don’t think anyone meant any harm. we was all joking abt but i understand it upset you.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • SebSeb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    Talked to shout. Not helpful. Worse now I think. Idk. Drinking and hoping I’ll just pass out until chat I guess.
  • eylaheylah Community Connector Posts: 10,407 An Original Mixlorian
    i hope you can keep safe @Seb . remember 999 is there if you’re ever in immediate danger.
    ppl dont always need advice. sometimes all they rly need is a hand to hold. an ear to listen. and a heart to understand them. 🧸
  • SebSeb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    Don’t feel safe in my head. I’ll feel even more scared if I can 999 or got to a&e. Just drinking and hope I pass out. Probably won’t feel better even if that doesn’t happen.
  • SebSeb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    I don’t even wanna say if/ when I feel better because then I feel like I’ll just be ignored.
  • KatieKatie Staff Posts: 2,133 Boards Champion
    Hey @Seb I hear you're not feeling safe in your head. Do you intend to act on these thoughts you're having?

    I also wonder if there is anything you can think of that might help keep you safe today? Is there a particular way you've managed these thoughts in the past?

    You're doing so well to reach out for support Seb.
  • SebSeb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    I’m not going to do anything. It’s just why bother when it feels like no one’s there for me when I’m always there for everyone else? I suck at making and keeping friends. I just wanna feel looked after and cared about for once. I’ve finished about 2 drinks. Great.
  • Laura_tigger82Laura_tigger82 Discussion Boards Moderator Posts: 5,456 Part of The Furniture
    We are here with you @Seb. However, it sounds like you are feeling lonely, am I hearing that right? Sometimes, people can feel lonely, even if they aren't alone. This is usually because, for example, there are people near them but they don't feel like they care, don't feel able to reach out to them or they are struggling to connect with them more deeply. Does this resonate?

    I can hear how much you value being there for everyone else. Though you just wish people were there for you like you are for them. Caring for others sounds super important to you - what elements of this care do you wish others provided you with? It sounds like that deep care, where people aren't there because you feel they have to be but because they choose to be and they stay longer-term.

    Chat sounds like an element of hope for you - to be able to talk to the community! And I also hear how important your dog is! I used to have 2 dogs and I love that my grandparents still have dogs (Terriers), cuddles with dogs feel extra precious sometimes!
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  • SebSeb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    It feels like that yeah. Just want deep, meaningful connections with people.
  • Laura_tigger82Laura_tigger82 Discussion Boards Moderator Posts: 5,456 Part of The Furniture
    We hear that @Seb.

    Have you ever had this connection with anyone? What steps do you feel you might be able to take towards this?
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  • SebSeb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    Me and my friend but they’re asleep. They feel depressed too but I can’t help but feel lonely when I tried to talk to him today and yesterday I guess.
  • SebSeb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    Just had kfc. Ocd thoughts are killing me right now and I still feel pretty bad. Shout and papyrus weren’t helpful at all.
  • SebSeb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    I feel absolutely awful. Can I vent today or not because it’s just general?
  • SebSeb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    I just wanna cry.
  • NathanNathan Community Connector Posts: 2,850 Boards Guru
    Seb wrote: »
    I just wanna cry.

    @Seb Hello seb, i'm here if you want to talk a bit about anything. You aren't alone mate.
  • AnimalloverbAnimalloverb Posts: 622 Incredible Poster
    @Seb
    I will be here as much as I can for you too. There are loads of us who care mate.
  • SebSeb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    Thanks. Just feel lonely right now. There doesn’t feel like much point.
  • AnimalloverbAnimalloverb Posts: 622 Incredible Poster
    @Seb
    @DonnerKebab set up a thread you can use tonight if you need to talk right now.
  • SebSeb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    I feel awful again. Disassociation, derealisation, depersonalisation, and depression. I don’t want to mess up one of the only good things in my life right now, but I’m so tired and overwhelmed right now by everything all of the time.
  • sinead276sinead276 Posts: 2,305 Boards Champion
    Hi @Seb - i'm sorry to hear your feeling so down and low at the moment. Hopefully you are safe right now and we are here for you if you need to get some of those negative feelings off your chest a bit more.

    It's okay to be feeling tired and overwhelmed by things. If possible today, take things one step at a time. Sometimes we can need slower days to help us just relax that little bit more and calm us down.

    Sending lots of hugs <3
  • SebSeb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    I feel like this all the time. I feel like I’m never gonna get better.
  • Sian321Sian321 Community Manager Posts: 3,296 Boards Guru
    Hey @Seb thank you so much for this post. It sounds like things have continued to feel really, really relentless, and you're doing so well to put this into words.

    May I ask, what kinds of thoughts or feelings are coming up for you in the hardest moments right now?

    I wonder if you'd feel comfortable sharing some more about what makes you feel that you have messed up something good in your life? We're here to listen without judgement.
  • SebSeb Posts: 127 The Mix Convert
    I’m feeling awful again. I need to get out of this house. I can’t live like this anymore. What are some websites for emergency housing?
  • RedemptionRedemption Community Connector Posts: 6,315 Master Poster
    Seb wrote: »
    I’m feeling awful again. I need to get out of this house. I can’t live like this anymore. What are some websites for emergency housing?

    @Seb Im so extremely sorry things are tough right now. I think it depends on your circumstances for emergency housing like, if you are safe or homeless or at risk of homelessness etc, Im not sure of your circumstances now or in general but if you want to move out council housing might be an option. Im sorry I can't be anymore help. We are all here and listening.
  • NathanNathan Community Connector Posts: 2,850 Boards Guru
    edited January 4
    Seb wrote: »
    I’m feeling awful again. I need to get out of this house. I can’t live like this anymore. What are some websites for emergency housing?

    Hi @Seb i'm so sorry things have gotten so awful for you. I'll pop a few links here for you friend, and i'm here to talk to if you need emotional support, or someone to vent to. A lot of it depends on circumstances, and who your local council is.

    This is shelter's emergency helpline. I'd advise speaking to these people, who are experts on it:
    https://england.shelter.org.uk/get_help/helpline

    And i just want to say, i know it must be crushing how you feel right now. I've come close to it myself. You aren't alone right now friend.
  • Ech0Ech0 Community Connector Posts: 182 Helping Hand
    @Seb I’m really glad you spoke up and shared how you’re feeling. I am so sorry to hear that things feel incredibly heavy right now. Feeling lonely, exhausted, and ignored can hurt in a way that’s hard to put into words, and it makes complete sense that you’d feel worn down after trying so hard for
    so long.

    I’m really sorry you’re feeling so awful right now. You don’t have to face this alone, and there are people and services who can assist you in finding somewhere safe, secure and supportive to stay. Shelter (https://england.shelter.org.uk/get_help/helpline) can give urgent housing advice and help you contact your local council’s homelessness team at 0808 800 4444 or via their website. Crisis (https://www.crisis.org.uk/get-help) offers support with emergency accommodation and longer‑term housing options. If you are at immediate risk of rough sleeping, StreetLink (https://www.streetlink.org.uk) can alert local outreach teams who will try to come to you and find support. St Mungo’s (https://www.mungos.org) works with people at risk of rough sleeping and can offer emergency and short-term housing as well as outreach support. Centrepoint (https://centrepoint.org.uk) helps young people aged 16–25 who are homeless or at risk, offering supported accommodation and guidance.

    I’m really sorry that reaching out for help in the past didn’t give you what you needed. That kind of experience can leave you feeling dismissed and even more alone and it isn’t your fault at all. You and your experiences and feelings are very valid and real, and they absolutely deserve to be treated with understanding, kindness and attention. You don’t have to carry all of this by yourself right now. We care about you, we’re listening, and we’re glad you’re here.


    You matter so much more than your mind is telling you in this moment. You matter because your life has value that does not disappear when you are hurting, quiet, exhausted, or struggling. You matter not because of what you can give others, how useful you are, or how well you hold yourself together, but simply because you exist as a person with feelings and depth. Your empathy, your care for others, your desire for deep long-lasting connection, and the fact that you are still here reaching out all show that you are important. The world is a brighter and better place with you in it.
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