I just don't know my feelings at the moment

Animalloverb

I don’t really know what I’m feeling.
It changes all the time. Sometimes I feel too much at once. Other times, nothing at all. Like I’m either drowning in my thoughts or completely numb. There’s rarely an in-between.

My brain gets so loud. Overthinking, spiraling, creating problems I can’t fix just endless noise. Then suddenly, it’s quiet. Too quiet. Like the lights are still on, but no one’s home. I stop caring. I stop reacting. I just go still inside.

And a lot of the time, I feel disconnected from the world. Like I’m floating above my own life, watching everything happen but not really in it. I hear people talk. I see life going on. But I’m not part of it. I feel like I’m missing something like there’s a layer of glass between me and everyone else.

I feel lonely. Not because I’m always alone, but because I rarely feel understood. I try to open up, but I don’t think people really see me. Or maybe they don’t know how. Or maybe I just don’t know how to let them.

I don’t want someone to fix me. I just want someone to sit next to me in this mess and not make me feel broken for it. Just someone to say, “You’re not crazy. You’re not too much. You’re not alone.”

I don’t need solutions. I need space. To feel what I feel even when I can’t explain it. Even when it doesn’t make sense.

Azziman

Hey @Animalloverb, thank you for sharing this with us. I can hear how these feelings can be confusing and hard to make sense of. The desire for space and emotional support as you navigate through this is completely valid.

You mention that these feelings change between "too much" and "nothing" - do you notice any patterns as to when they happen, or how long they last? And on the feeling of disconnection, how long have you noticed this has been going on?

We're here to listen to you and support you through this.

Animalloverb

@Azziman

There isn't any pattern as to when they happen, it's all kind of random.
And with how long it lasts, it's different everytime. Sometimes they can last hours, and sometimes they can last up to 30 minutes.

The feeling of disconnection has been on and off for years to be honest.

Blue_lily

Hi @Animalloverb, thank you so much for sharing, what your saying is so valid sometimes when our brain is distressing us sometimes all we want is a bit of peace in our outside world, we just want to feel normal and not feel like we need to be fixed, we just want those around us to comfort us.

How have you been today?

You've got this lovely. This community will always be here for you.

Animalloverb

@Blue_lily
Thank you, i haven't been too good today but I'm getting through everyday as always.

Redemption

@Animalloverb You’re not alone in feeling this way. What you said makes total sense, even if it feels hard to explain. You’re not broken, and you’re not too much. It’s ok to feel all of it or nothing at all. You don’t need to be fixed; you just need space and someone to sit with you in it. I’m here.