Starting to question everything (TW self-harm)

Rose113

I’m tired, I’m exhausted, I’m hurting, I’m neglecting myself. Everyday I’m just a people pleaser, I ignore my own triggers and problems just to please people and make them happy because there all that matter in this world. Not me. Never will be me.

regression

So as many know it’s something I struggle with a lot however I am also a caregiver virtually for 2 friends who are also regressors and whilst it’s sometimes okay it’s so difficult with one person. Maybe that’s because we have history and maybe even just burnt to many bridges in the passed but whatever I still help him but the past 2 weeks they’ve been little non stop and it’s so so so hard because they stress you out but you can’t tell them the truth or you’ll upset that.

Self harm

My self harm healed as it’s always been something that heals so fast but I don’t have any objects now as I’m trying to stick to my grandmas wish but I hate seeing my arms bare. I hate seeing them looking so…clean…

I do t miss self harm for the most part but tonight I do just because it’s a shitty night and I’m just ready to delete everything and live my life in a rock 👍🏻

I’m too tired and shaky to type anymore but yeah…sorry