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TW: Too many emotions: Crying 😢
Lottie5433
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The last couple days have been alot 😔
Ive made my friend concerned and worried for me, im trying to ease her and make out like im okay.
TW - Self-harm
Everytime she messages I cry because I know she truly wants me to be better but I hate burdening her. She trying to get me to start taking my medication again so I feel better but I dont deserve it and don't deserve to feel better.
Why am I like this?
Why am I being so pathetic and basically crying for no reason?
Ive made my friend concerned and worried for me, im trying to ease her and make out like im okay.
TW - Self-harm
yesterday i went gym with her but she saw that my whole are was bandaged up. She knows ive relapsed with my self-harm but didnt question it until today 😢
This time round my self-harm has happened alot more in varying severity i guess i can put it. Like it doesnt need any medical attention as ive dealt with it myself, but i know this is why she most concerned and worried for me
This time round my self-harm has happened alot more in varying severity i guess i can put it. Like it doesnt need any medical attention as ive dealt with it myself, but i know this is why she most concerned and worried for me
Everytime she messages I cry because I know she truly wants me to be better but I hate burdening her. She trying to get me to start taking my medication again so I feel better but I dont deserve it and don't deserve to feel better.
Why am I like this?
Why am I being so pathetic and basically crying for no reason?
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sending so much love your way lottie🫶🏻
That being said, your feelings are valid - it's okay to feel sad and cry if that's how you feel. We can't always choose who looks after us, but it's nice to be cared for by those around us - we cherish those people in our lives, and you've got a great friend there by your side right now
You mentioned self-harm recently, so I just want to check that you're safe at the moment? We're here to support you through this, and please do use this space to let us know how you're doing! I've included some support links that you might find helpful as well
Sorry it's taken a while for me to respond and acknowledge you ❤️
It has been a difficult time lately but trying to just deal with it by myself. I just feel bad that she's having to checkup on me to see if im okay, like she puts up with alot from me. Her response was that "she's not putting up with me its what friends are for," and I'm truely grateful for her.
I just dont feel like I deserve to have her as a friend or to be supported by anyone 😕
The thing is I don't know if I am sad It just felt like I was crying for no reason - it just took over me. Although when I spoke to the samaritaians they put it as "it show how low i actually am, and its okay to cry there isnt anythjng wrong with it".
My friend is a truely amazing person for me to have in my life and im glad the world brought us back together after a few years apart ❤️.
At the moment I am safe, ive tried to distract myself from engaging anymore with the SH. Im just now worried about next week as I have to see the Eating disorder team for blood test/physical tests again and they are going to see it all and im scared what they will say/who they may tell 😔.
Thank you for the support links ❤️