*maybe* going back to netball

shannon_164

i used to play netball - throughout primary school and secondary school both within and outside teams - covid then hit and lockdown happened, i then struggled a lot with getting back into netball again but netball ni then done social netball which i done for a while and loved it, but then when i went back to college in september 2021 the times really didn’t work out and i then had to give it up. ive now been trying since january 2022 to get back into it, every year ive said how im going to get back into netball again and i just can’t - the closest ive gotten has been driving to the car park, sitting in my car and crying too scared to go in. i’ve contacted my 2 local teams multiple times but i then never bother when it gets to the start of the season but i think it’s due to be worried about the fact i’ll know probably everyone there from playing previously / school, as well as knowing one of my old teachers plays for one of the teams and im just scared i guess because of my scars like them being seen?

howeverrrrr, i just signed up for play netball so now just waiting to be placed in a team - i hope that it’s either a case of being placed on a team that needs players or placed into a new team as many others have signed up too so i dont have to wait too long hopefully. it’s also not like super local to me either so i guess i dont have the fear anymore of what if i know everyone from school etc yay

netball was my fav thing growing up, it was the part of my week where i could just forget everything and just do something i love so im really excited about the possibility of going back again eeeek