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My 2025 poetry thread

Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
Disclaimer// I know it’s not strictly 2025 but I keep loosing my poems so to start this is my new poetry thread :)
Want to hurt me… go ahead
Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
Want to talk crap about me…go on then
Want to make me cry…feel free
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  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    When will things change

    They only love me when I’m happy
    When I’m not being a bother
    And for the pain to be unseen
    Smiling and acting as if nothing is happening
    Giving my all to hide the truth
    But when my world crumbles to pieces
    No one could care
    Not even the tiniest bit
    Im just left alone to struggle

    Im constantly wondering
    how sad I have to be
    For someone to actually worry about me
    But people will just keep forcing me
    To insist that everything is always fine

    Nobody is coming
    To save me
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    A pain free dream

    I wish I was just forever asleep
    I don’t want to be dead, just gone and left to be
    Not to be vanished but to be hidden away
    In a fairytale dream, where everything is a breeze
    A peaceful and pain free life of hopes and dreams
    Maybe it’s okay if I just slipped away
    To be hidden away in a silent slumber
    With no pain to bear
    And no tears to be strained
    I’d be happy in my harmonious land
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    Terrors of my AGR

    Returning back to a younger state of mind
    Mostly just toddler years age 4 and below
    But the midst of darkness likes to take a toll
    It’s supposed to be my little space
    Where the little child within me can come out to play
    Except the pain and fear locks me in
    It’s meant to be a coping mechanism
    Tho it’s like my heads version of self harm
    With hidden secrets and a scary place

    There’s a 3 year old frozen in my head
    a little like me but more girly
    She comes out to play
    when times get overwhelming
    She’s wild and bubbly
    Just full of joy
    She does have her flaws
    Though you see this little girl
    Wasn’t nurtured to be where she is today
    She has a background filled with abuse
    Where her heart was constantly bruised

    She’s learning to heal with the help from A
    In her comfort messaging space
    A safe little home with games and love
    Even when it’s long distance she’s loved

    There’s another little hiding in the shadows
    She’s nothing like me but kinda a multi personality
    A traumatised 2 year old
    In her own broken world
    Nothing like me
    Nothing like my life
    A strange little thing
    As we are nothing compared to thee

    But when the darkness overcrowds it all
    We’re left with the switching to all
    From one little to another
    Our head has no idea which to become
    A foggy feeling filling the mind
    There the terrors of AGR
    No one understands the complication

    Unexplainable answers to why it occurs
    These are the terrors of my AGR 💔
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    The greif my heart now holds 💔

    The lonely pain that storms my head
    as I miss you every day
    I miss your calming voice
    And your warm hugs
    I know your sitting with me
    when the night gets dark

    Oh how I wish I could go back in time
    to hold you close to my heart
    I’ll do anything to see you again
    I miss you more than my heart can comprehend
    Your an angel in the sky
    But deep down I wonder

    where are you now?

    I close my eyes each night and dream
    I see you dancing happy and pain free
    The weight of the pain that lingers in me
    Is worth it to know that your now free

    I miss you grandma 💔
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
  • amy02amy02 Moderator Posts: 385 Listening Ear
    Beautiful poem @Rose113 here for you <3
  • Amy22Amy22 Posts: 4,946 The Mix Elder
    these are some very beautiful and empowering poems I can see your personality shine through them too and i think you got a very lovely skill to have to be able to write your experiences in the form of poetry. <3
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  • sinead276sinead276 Posts: 1,803 Extreme Poster
    you've got a real art for poetry @Rose113 and i can't wait to be able to read the poems you post here throughout 2025 - keep going :3
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    edited December 2024
    The day death greets me

    I hope the day that death finds me
    Will be the most special time in my life
    The day that death greets me
    With its open arms that I can bind
    When I can meet my family
    In the place I’m meant to be
    Where my heart can finally fly free

    I used to wish upon death as a little kid
    It’s probably really bad to wish for
    but now I know why
    As a child I dreamed for it all
    I wished upon the stars in the sky
    I wished through every birthday wish
    I gave everything in me for it to come true

    It never did but I still wish for it to be
    To gain my wings and to be finally free
    From the grasps of this cruel worlds grip

    I’ll keep wishing
    Upon the stars
    In each Christmas wish
    Upon the birthday wishes as I blow out the candles
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    edited December 2024
    It’s okay

    I - I’ll forever say I’m okay
    T - To avoid the shame
    S - so no one has to pretend to care

    O - or to yell at me in shame
    K - keep the peace
    A - act like I’m okay
    Y - you don’t have to pretend to care
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    2025

    Dear 2025, a new year
    Though some things will remain
    I know it won’t be “my year”
    A repeat of the last 4
    Pain, trauma and more
    The same dark thoughts
    The same stupid habits
    Empty promises…

    I’ve learned to hurt
    Without letting it be known
    Things will happen
    The same wounds will open
    I stitch up my own damage

    It’ll be a lonely year
    A year to tear me apart further
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
  • MaiaMaia Moderator Posts: 435 Listening Ear
    This is a very poignant poem @Rose113 <3 You are incredibly talented and you articulate how you feel so well in your poems!

    Sending you lots of love and strength, We will be here for you in 2025 <3
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    Sorry what does poignant mean @Maia sorry

    Also thank you <3
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
  • MaiaMaia Moderator Posts: 435 Listening Ear
    Rose113 wrote: »
    Sorry what does poignant mean @Maia sorry

    Also thank you <3

    Poignant can mean a couple of things! But in this case, I meant that your poem is deeply moving and heartfelt <3 Its really bittersweet and I felt moved because of how honestly and beautifully you expressed your feelings, even though they're painful. You have a real talent!
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    Thank you so much @Maia <3
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    What will it take?

    How long will I have to scream
    For everyone to see that I’m not okay
    How long will it be
    For everyone to see my cry for help
    How long will i have to pretend
    Until someone sees through my fake smile
    How many silent tears will i have to hide
    Until you notice something is wrong
    When will you see I’m not okay?
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    TW//

    Dear future me

    Dear future me
    is there even a future me
    Doubt I’ll make it past 18
    But this world is full of surprises
    I wasn’t meant to make it past 15
    Except somehow I did..

    Dear future me
    What can I even say
    Just don’t be the fuck up that you are now
    Don’t carry on being useless
    Worthless, a waste of space
    Just don’t!

    Don’t carry on being that person
    The one that no one likes
    The one that is a freak
    Be normal
    Or is that not possible for you
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
  • AnonymousToeAnonymousToe Posts: 2,510 Boards Guru
    Big hugs @Rose113 i just wanted to say that although you feel worthless etc, you’re not to us!! You’re so important and lovely. I like you as you are. I really hope 2025 is a much kinder year to you. 🫂
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    Can’t you see

    Can’t you tell that she can’t be fixed
    The emotionless smile she has
    The many plans she holds for safe keeping
    Secrets of her world coming to an end
    Letters she hides ready for the special day

    Can’t you see she’s leaving soon
    That’s why she wears long sleeves
    It hides the scars of her trying to hold on
    The wounds she causes daily
    Do you see??

    Can’t you see she can’t do this anymore
    She can barely breathe trying to fight
    She can’t hold on much longer

    Can’t you see?
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    What will it take?

    How long will I have to scream
    For everyone to see that I’m not okay
    How long will it be
    For everyone to see my cry for help
    How long will i have to pretend
    Until someone sees through my fake smile
    How many silent tears will i have to hide
    Until you notice something is wrong
    When will you see I’m not okay?
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
  • amy02amy02 Moderator Posts: 385 Listening Ear
    Thank you for sharing with us @Rose113 <3
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    Eccedentesiast

    I guess you could say I’m exactly that
    An eccedentesiast
    It’s all just hidden behind the smiles
    If I told you the darkness that lies inside
    You’d run away and hide

    I used to not be this way
    I wanted to talk about it long ago
    To scream and shout
    But after darkness, pain
    All I could do was whisper

    I’m an eccedentesiast
    I’ll hide behind a smile to avoid
    I don’t want to be the burden
    I hide a thousand feelings behind the smile
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
  • ebyrne556ebyrne556 Moderator Posts: 1,211 Wise Owl
    Ur poems are so powerful @Rose113 thank u sm for sharing with us all
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  • Sian321Sian321 Community Manager Posts: 263 The Mix Regular
    Thank you for sharing these @Rose113. Your words about hiding behind a smile feel so moving. I'm thinking about what that might feel like - to be holding 'a thousand feelings' on the inside, but having to smile on the outside. That sounds lonely. I'm grateful you continue to share these <3
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    Do you understand?

    Do you even understand?
    Your world seems to be all sunshine and rainbows
    So maybe you don’t see the pain that burdens me
    You’ve got it all in check
    But I’m just a wreck
    Overwhelming pain to bear
    It carves into me like a *removed sharp name*

    Do you understand?
    My best friend is a *removed sharp name*
    Always there when I need it most
    There to punish me when things go wrong
    An easy solution so no one needs to care
    I deserve it most beyond anything compared

    Do you understand??
    Do you?

    Please…understand!
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
  • sinead276sinead276 Posts: 1,803 Extreme Poster
    i've said it before and i'll keep on saying it - i absolutely love your poems. you can really feel the emotions and messages behind them. please never stop sharing them <3
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    Thank you @sinead276 <3
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    User not found

    “User not found” is all I see
    Do you think you’ll change that and tell me
    What did I do wrong to make you delete me
    Was it because I fought for myself when you were mean?

    “User not found” it hurts that it comes to this
    I’m sorry for the boundaries and for breaking free
    I stood up for myself so you would see
    I’m not just a push over I am a human indeed

    “User not found” I guess this is the end
    The chance to move on when I don’t want
    The comfort of your grasp I miss
    The terrors you held upon me
    “User not found” that’s all I’m left to see

    User.not.found…
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
  • Rose113Rose113 Community Champion Posts: 2,792 Boards Guru
    I fell in love with pain

    I fell in love with the pain you showed me
    I find myself missing it so closely
    You have a peice in my heart
    Something I love so much
    Pain, hurt and more
    Thank you for showing me the way
    You showed me the way of life

    I fell in love with the lessons of what I deserve
    Pain, hurt and more
    I’ll forever need to endure
    It hurts deep down but above I love it ever so much

    Pain, hurt and more
    I deserved all the pain you showed me
    All the things bad
    All the stuff I endure
    Pain
    Hurt
    And more…
    Want to hurt me… go ahead
    Wish to bully me…I’m used to it
    Want to talk crap about me…go on then
    Want to make me cry…feel free
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