My 2025 poetry thread

Rose113

Disclaimer// I know it’s not strictly 2025 but I keep loosing my poems so to start this is my new poetry thread

Rose113

When will things change

They only love me when I’m happy
When I’m not being a bother
And for the pain to be unseen
Smiling and acting as if nothing is happening
Giving my all to hide the truth
But when my world crumbles to pieces
No one could care
Not even the tiniest bit
Im just left alone to struggle

Im constantly wondering
how sad I have to be
For someone to actually worry about me
But people will just keep forcing me
To insist that everything is always fine

Nobody is coming
To save me

Rose113

A pain free dream

I wish I was just forever asleep
I don’t want to be dead, just gone and left to be
Not to be vanished but to be hidden away
In a fairytale dream, where everything is a breeze
A peaceful and pain free life of hopes and dreams
Maybe it’s okay if I just slipped away
To be hidden away in a silent slumber
With no pain to bear
And no tears to be strained
I’d be happy in my harmonious land

Rose113

I don’t want to die

I don’t want to die, I just don’t want to be here
Stuck in a painful cruel world, too hard to bear
I’d rather be alone in anywhere far from here
A place where my scattered thoughts can heal
Where my wounded heart can just be set free
Too feel the way I want to feel with no fear of shame
For nothing to be said and nothing to be done

I don’t want to die
I just want to be free
For my world to stop caving
For all the doors to close
Away from those who seek for pain

So the world can stop moving, then I can finally breathe

Rose113

Terrors of my AGR

Returning back to a younger state of mind
Mostly just toddler years age 4 and below
But the midst of darkness likes to take a toll
It’s supposed to be my little space
Where the little child within me can come out to play
Except the pain and fear locks me in
It’s meant to be a coping mechanism
Tho it’s like my heads version of self harm
With hidden secrets and a scary place

There’s a 3 year old frozen in my head
a little like me but more girly
She comes out to play
when times get overwhelming
She’s wild and bubbly
Just full of joy
She does have her flaws
Though you see this little girl
Wasn’t nurtured to be where she is today
She has a background filled with abuse
Where her heart was constantly bruised

She’s learning to heal with the help from A
In her comfort messaging space
A safe little home with games and love
Even when it’s long distance she’s loved

There’s another little hiding in the shadows
She’s nothing like me but kinda a multi personality
A traumatised 2 year old
In her own broken world
Nothing like me
Nothing like my life
A strange little thing
As we are nothing compared to thee

But when the darkness overcrowds it all
We’re left with the switching to all
From one little to another
Our head has no idea which to become
A foggy feeling filling the mind
There the terrors of AGR
No one understands the complication

Unexplainable answers to why it occurs
These are the terrors of my AGR 💔