I'm done not being listened to

Lucy_21

I have mentioned before about my difficult relationship with food. I didn't know about them until recently through my friend but they explained 'safe foods' to me. It explained so much like why I have the pallet of a child. Finding things to eat isn't a massive problem as it's the kind of food I'm alright with as it's things my mom calls staples anyway its the drinks that I find hard. For the last year or so it's gotten to where I can only have certain specific drinks without the urge to throw up. My main is Pepsi original. My mom didn't used to buy it often until I explained it was the only thing I could have at tea and have voiced to the kids plenty of times do not touch the Pepsi it's the only thing I can keep down. It seems the more I tell them the more they drink it just because it's there. (Just an explanation. The fridge is always shocked with plenty to drink for the other kids that we know they like so I'm not grading the only drink in there)
The reason it's getting to me is food is already so hard for me as it is and having my Pepsi with it helps so have to force It without it (not fun trust me) but they don't listen. All I get is it doent have your name on it or it's not just for you. Yes if it's the only thing in there they like and they need a drink sure have some I'm not that mean but when they full up big cups and don't even finish it when the fridge is full it hurts because yes they are kids and don't completely understand why I am the way I am about it it's like they do it intentionally because I always say don't touch it when I put it away.

The post is because my brother just filled his flask (yes full flask) with it for school when my mom filled the fridge yesterday with again drinks he has all the time and when I told him again about it being all I can drink without insane stomach pain or feeling like throwing up right after he gets snarky like it doesn't have your name on it. I just had to come back to my room so I don't cry. I feel so stupid I mean I know it's just a liquid but it's not my a drink to me and it's like I said I just feel ignored and like what I find hard doent matter

Azziman

Hey @Lucy_21, thank you for sharing this with us here. It's brave to open up about your struggles, and I can hear how frustrating this has been for you. You've mentioned having to ask them to not drink Pepsi because it's one of the things that you can handle, and I can hear how being repeatedly ignored can feel upsetting. The way you feel is completely valid, your struggles are real, and you've done your best to try and be reasonable about this.

Is there a way that you could have some Pepsi that only you can access? Perhaps it's kept in a separate place where they can't get it? If talking to them isn't working, it might need a different approach to resolve this.

At the same time, I'd keep speaking to your mum about this. It sounds like she responded better when you spoke to her, since she starting buying more since then. How would you feel about this? Perhaps she can help you to find another solution? We're here to support you through this

Lucy_21

Thank you @Azziman I have started bringing the bottle straight to my room and has settled a part of my anxiety I didn't realize was there

Sian321

Hey @Lucy_21 , thanks so much for your post. I'm really pleased to hear that keeping the Pepsi in your room has helped settle some of that anxiety. What you were feeling is 100% valid, and I agree with all the things lovely @Azziman has said here

How have things been this weekend so far? We're here for you, Lucy!