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I'm not sure where to go from here
KikiChanel
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Tw- disordered eating
I'm really not sure where to go from here, my obsessive thoughts about food mean that it's hard to pay attention and attend all classes at school. The teachers have emailed my mum about some of my comments on food and calories and I'm terrified they might look through my search history or find out that I've convinced a teacher that I am doing a biology experiment when I use his scales. I just want to disappear and for everyone to leave me alone. I'm terrified of scaring my siblings or hurting my parents and logically I know they want the best for me, but in my head everyone is the enemy and I just want to fade away, I really don't know where to go from here.
I'm really not sure where to go from here, my obsessive thoughts about food mean that it's hard to pay attention and attend all classes at school. The teachers have emailed my mum about some of my comments on food and calories and I'm terrified they might look through my search history or find out that I've convinced a teacher that I am doing a biology experiment when I use his scales. I just want to disappear and for everyone to leave me alone. I'm terrified of scaring my siblings or hurting my parents and logically I know they want the best for me, but in my head everyone is the enemy and I just want to fade away, I really don't know where to go from here.
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It can be difficult when you are caught up in the cycle of self-destruction/disordered eating to feel like anyone is on your side and not against you for going against the behaviours which are harming you.
Have you heard of BEAT before? You may not wish to hear about it right now but they can support you if you would like to talk this through. What would you like to happen at the moment?
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but remember - the fact you have even spoken about it on here shows that you're taking the first step and a part of you wants to get better. and for that you should be super proud of yourself.
hopefully your appointment goes well when it happens, and we will try and support you however we can when you need us to on here.
sending hugs
Sinéad
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I hope your appointment goes well and we are always here to talk through things with you