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struggling with urges.
eylah
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struggling with sh urges rn im missing my mum sm rn its upsetting me bc ive lost the only person who i was staying alive for now i have noone. im alone broken a broken mess. i tried reaching out bc i was rly struggling but instead was told to stop bothering ppl which has upset me sm. i am omly 2 days free from sh so its rly hard bc even though mum isnt here i dont want to let her down. i hate myself and dont want to do my life without her but i will. im safe. i am just struggling with everything bc i have to live with my sbusive dad which has caused me sm fear bc hes so obnoxious and nasty.
keep your face always toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you. 🤍
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I completely understand your concerns about confidentiality, and it's totally valid to feel hesitant to reach out to helplines. From what I know, these services only break confidentiality if they feel you're in serious danger. If you ever feel ready or able to, they could provide some extra support to talk through your thoughts and feelings . They're really there to help during times like this.
I'm really glad to hear that you're staying safe, even though I know it’s incredibly hard. I'm just sharing some resources just in case you need them for immediate support at any point:
Are there any other friends, family, or people you feel safe talking to about how you're feeling right now? Sometimes sharing with someone in your close circle can also make things feel a little lighter.
Please remember to be gentle with yourself. You’re going through so much, and it’s okay to take things one step at a time. You deserve kindness, especially from yourself. As always, we're here for you whenever you need us.
I hear that you're hesitant around using services due to confidentiality, based on your past experiences. I wanted to suggest some alternative ways that might help you to express your emotions. A diary/journal could be a helpful outlet for you to express yourself. And of course, please feel free to keep using this space to talk about how you're feeling too.
Please do your best to look after yourself given the situation, and remember that we're here to listen to you and support you through this difficult time
sry for the late reply im not gd at all these are getting rly heavy to handle im rly struggling with these thoughts but im gonna try reach out without having them called. thankyou
Did you manage to reach out to the services you were thinking about contacting? If so, we are here for you if you would like to talk to us more about how this went for you.
We are here for you! Although you don't want to let your mum down, she will be watching you with pride at your courage to keep fighting through this
i did reach out but stopped halfway through bc they once again mentioned emergency services so i stopped talking to them bc i dont want to deal with that hassel and yeah im missing mum sm .
While it may feel particuarly painful right now, the pain will eventually dull and will become more manageable. You are doing so well and you are so brave. You are not alone through all this- we are here for you every step of the way.
It sounds incredibly tough, especially with the uncertainty around your results and the situation at home. I'm really glad you're safe at the moment and continuing to fight these feelings.
I can hear how isolated you're feeling right now, and that can be such a hard place to be in. It sounds like you're not completely comfortable with Shout anymore, especially with the possibility of emergency services being involved which is understandable. Have you considered trying Samaritans? They're known for being good with confidentiality which might help you feel a bit more comfy reaching out. Have you used their services before?
You're doing so well, Eylah. Just keep taking it one day at a time