my mum is seriously unwell again 😭.

eylah

my mum has fallen seriously unwell again bc of her transplant im sobbing rn i cant deal with this. i need my mum sm but shes fallen ill again . i found out today but i am sobbing sm rn bc she is my mum and i want her to be better. she was doing so well but now her body is reacting badly even though she on medication to stop this. i just want a hug i cant deal with this anymore everything is so much rn my head is so heavy rn . im broken i rly am broken i feel so useless now . shes in best place but im so upset. im sry for posting again but i am heartbroken im feeling so down rn. im needing prayers for my mum 😭😭😭😭. sry again. idk how to make this make sense rn im so lost .

eylah

shes deteriorating .

sinead276

sending you, your mum and the rest of your family lots of love, hugs and prayers right now.

you've been so strong with everything you're going through, and fingers crossed they are able to find a way to make her better.

thinking of you
Sinead

eylah

i’m so worried abt her

eylah

shes back on a ventilator im so sad rn. she has other health issues which is causing her to be so ill.

Former Member

hi eylah, I'm so sorry your mum is unwell. That must be so incredibly hard to cope with. Sending you and her so much love and prayers. I'm sure she's got the best support wherever she's being taken care of. And hope you're getting plenty of support too from your friends and family?
It makes complete sense that you feel so down and lost. Make sure you reach out to those around you. You're deserving of support too. Sending a virtual hug! Were all thinking of you

eylah

thankyou ive been told by her dr shes rly unwell she might pass away bc her other health issues are making everything worse.

EmLiz

@eylah I don't have a lot more to add here but wanted to echo what other members have said already and check in on how you and she are doing. I'm so sorry you're going through a hard time but you're showing so much strength in continuing to share and reach out

Sending you and her lots of love. You have all of us here to lean on.

eylah

shes not gd at all so im not doing gd either.

toffuna101

sending hugs @eylah

eylah

thankyou.

Orchid059

I am sorry to hear this @eylah you're being so brave right now. I know that probably no words of reassurance could settle your mind at this time, but just know that she is in the best place for her. Keep us updated with how she is getting on and keep reaching out for support.

We're all thinking of you

eylah

im not sleeping bc im scared whether my mum is alive or dead bc of her health issues etc i cant cope with everything. thankyou @Orchid059 .

Orchid059

I cannot fathom what that must feel like for you Eylah- keep holding out hope. I'm presuming the hospital is in frequent contact with you at the moment about how she is. Are you allowed to go and visit her at all?

eylah

yes the drs are bc im not able to see her bc of my previous trauma from that hospital bc i get so much anxiety and get upset going back to the hospital bc of bad things happening before. so i tried seeing her before got to the entrance of the hospital and had a huge panic attack and left bc it got to much. thankyou @Orchid059 .

Orchid059

That's good that they're in regular contact with you. I can understand how anxiety-provoking it is for you to show up to that hospital. Only do something if you feel comfortable to. We are here for you @eylah

eylah

just sat here sobbing bc i can’t see life without her thankyou for the help orchid.

eylah

update from the dr looking after mum he said she is stable but rly poorly rn. guess thats gd news? i cant cope sh urges are hard rn.

Azziman

Hey @eylah, glad to hear that your mum is in a stable condition. Hope she recovers and feels better soon

I can hear that it's a difficult time for you while your mum is in this state, that's completely understandable given what's happened. Just wanted to remind that if you feel you need extra support, you can always reach out to these services below who are around for chat:

Crisis Messenger (24/7) | text THEMIX to 85258
Samaritans (24/7) | call 116 123 | email jo@samaritans.org
Papyrus (2pm-midnight) | call 0800 068 41 41 | text 07786 209 697 | email pat@payrus-uk.org
Supportline (hours vary) | call 01708 765 200
Childline | call 0800 11 11

eylah

thankyou will keep updating when i hear something. just sad bc i have noone.

Amy22

Im super sorry to hear that happened right now, I can imagine that being stressful and scary for all of you including your family to go through. I hope your mum is doing ok right now and that she is getting the best care she can get from all the staff and team at the hospital. I am thinking of you and your family right now. Im always here too if you ever wanna chat as well or need support during these times .

Sending you an extra special hug,

Amy22

eylah

thankyou i just dont want to lose her bc she all i got to live for bc i have no reason if she goes.

Matthew_04

Hi @eylah just wanted to check in to see how you are now?

eylah

hi @Matthew_04 im not gd hru? ❤️

Matthew_04

That's understandable, I just wanted to let you know that you are being so incredibly brave and handling this situation the best that you can. We're all here for you at the moment and I can't imagine how stressful it is waiting on news about what's going on

I've added these organisations once again for you just in case you need some extra support right now

Crisis Messenger (24/7) | text THEMIX to 85258
Samaritans (24/7) | call 116 123 | email jo@samaritans.org
Papyrus (2pm-midnight) | call 0800 068 41 41 | text 07786 209 697 | email pat@payrus-uk.org
Supportline (hours vary) | call 01708 765 200
Childline | call 0800 11 11

eylah

thankyou matthew im not in crisis so dont need to reach out. thankyou though.

eylah

mum isnt gd still im so upset.

sinead276

sending you another big hug @eylah

eylah

thankyou i rly need a hug rn.

Dancer

Any updates? This all sounds terrifying.

eylah

shes still on the ventilator rn. not had much of update. shes stable rn.