My life has been a lot better and I've been a lot happier over the last year or so. But obviously I still get bad days - sometimes because something happens, and sometimes, like today, there's no obvious reason for it. I feel down or low today, I feel more stressed and anxious, I feel like something is missing or I'm lacking something today and I don't know why or what it is, the things I enjoy don't make me feel as happy as they normally do and I'm less motivated to do those things. I'm on holiday at my grandparents' at the moment so maybe that's why things feel "off" or like something's missing. Also all my family have gone out to a festival and I've decided to stay behind - my nan asked me to come with them but it's not that simple for me. The loud noises, the new environment, the different situations, all of it takes me longer to get used to and I can't just spontaneously decide to go and the reason I decided not to go in the first place was that I didn't think I'd be able to cope with it all (plus I wasn't that interested in going). I'm trying to make my time alone comfortable and fun but that's especially hard today. I went for a walk earlier which was nice but it was raining which I don't think helped my mood. Listening to music is helping me right now though