Bad day :(

OceanDreaming

My life has been a lot better and I've been a lot happier over the last year or so. But obviously I still get bad days - sometimes because something happens, and sometimes, like today, there's no obvious reason for it. I feel down or low today, I feel more stressed and anxious, I feel like something is missing or I'm lacking something today and I don't know why or what it is, the things I enjoy don't make me feel as happy as they normally do and I'm less motivated to do those things. I'm on holiday at my grandparents' at the moment so maybe that's why things feel "off" or like something's missing. Also all my family have gone out to a festival and I've decided to stay behind - my nan asked me to come with them but it's not that simple for me. The loud noises, the new environment, the different situations, all of it takes me longer to get used to and I can't just spontaneously decide to go and the reason I decided not to go in the first place was that I didn't think I'd be able to cope with it all (plus I wasn't that interested in going). I'm trying to make my time alone comfortable and fun but that's especially hard today. I went for a walk earlier which was nice but it was raining which I don't think helped my mood. Listening to music is helping me right now though

Azziman

Hey @OceanDreaming, I can hear how you're feeling low today. It's okay not to feel okay sometimes That being said, I'm glad to hear that you feel in a better place in life lately - that's positive to hear!

You mention that you decided not to go to the festival, and that seems reasonable. If you don't feel you can cope with that environment quite yet then that seems fair. Well done for having the courage to say no when you didn't feel it was right for you, it can be hard to say no. Would you prefer to be eased into these activities over time? Or is that particular festival environment something that you find difficult/uninteresting? Perhaps you can do something else with the family that you feel you can join in with. Are there other activities you could do as a family that you can think of?

I'm glad that you've tried to keep yourself occupied today. Walks and listening to music are nice ways to pass the time, especially when we're not feeling 100%. What kind of music do you find yourself listening to when you feel this way?

Be kind to yourself - you're doing your best to navigate things, and it's okay to have bad days sometimes. We're here to support you through this, rain or shine!

OceanDreaming

@Azziman Thank you for your reply. I’d like to be eased into the activities over time but for that I’d want someone with me while I went and I think everyone’s too busy for that, plus in general the whole festival isn’t really my vibe. I’m going out for a meal with my family in a couple of days (even though I probably won’t eat much) and maybe some people will go for a walk with me or something at some point.

I like listening to folk-esque indie pop! Stuff that’s positive and calming.

EmLiz

Hey @OceanDreaming It sounds like you've done exactly what's right and what works for you. It can be so important to listen to yourself and your intuition.

It sounds like you have a good few activities to ease back into things lined up! Walks always help me too, especially when there's good weather! Positive and calming also sounds like exactly the right vibe. How are you feeling today?

OceanDreaming

@EmLiz I'm feeling better today, still having some bad moments but they've been less frequent yesterday and today.