I keep making mistakes

Amy22

Mistakes, I keep making them. I got a stupid kink which I look at on devinart which is to do with blueberries from the charlie and the chocolate factory film. I just feel like even though I delete my history of course i feel like im being watched im worried ppl will find the truth about me.

Amy22

im a creep, a disgusting freak

Amy22

Is it weird to like certain kinks?. I'm just very very confused and scared

ebyrne556

Hey @Amy22 Just checking in on you today and im sorry this hasnt had any responses. Firstly well done for reaching out and saying how you are feeling the first step is never easy one to take.Im sorry your feeling scared and confused but sometimes we can like things that may seem unusual to others but some people might not find them weird and thats ok.As long as you are happy thats all that matters.None of us think you are a ‘disgusting freak’ we all appreciate you and your support of everyone here on the community.Also its ok to make mistakes and thats how we grow as people Sending hugs and we are here for you hope this helps a little

Amy22

Thank you @ebyrne556 I just feel I don't know honestly Im not a great person. I know that making mistakes is all part of learning and stuff and that I got this stupid habit thing. Im just worried that my friends/work will find out the truth about me I don't know. Do you ever get that feeling of being constantly watched twenty four seven?. Where it's either comfort characters or real life friends watching you from above constantly judging you for your behaviour, your interests (kinks, feelings everything).

Aoife

Echoing @ebyrne556 and wanted to say we don't think you're weird at all and kinks are a lot more common that many of realise, and it's also okay to have one as long as it's not harming anyone.

That feeling of being watched all the time sounds really tough to be going through and I can imagine the fear of your friends/work finding out causing a lot of panic at the moment. I'm wondering if you wanted to share more about this fear with us and some of the worries you're having? From what you've shared I'm hearing it's that fear of what they will think and their judgement, is that right?

Keep us updated with how you're feeling Amy, we're here for you

Amy22

Thanks @Aife, they are very lovely and understanding people its just that i think it is the feeling of being judged for me.