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lunarcat522

@Past User I'm really sorry you're going through this, it can be really difficult trying to be there for everyone else when you're struggling yourself. I'm not sure whether this gives any comfort but I've felt exactly the same, putting all my energy into not breaking each day (often failing).

You're not alone and here if you need to talk

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sputnik

Hi @Past User , how you doing today? I'm really sorry you're feeling so rough Sounds like a lot of really painful and overwhelming feelings, what jumps out at me especially is it sounds like you feel really really angry, at others and at yourself. Also sounds like you're trying to cope with a lot of responsibility which puts a huge weight on you - when you're already dealing with your own mental health issues it can be really hard to support others in theirs, and it shouldn't be your job to have to keep everyone around you safe. That takes a huge toll on your own wellbeing, and I'd be feeling really overwhelmed too if I was in your position. What kind of support do you have at the moment, is there anyone with whom you feel comfortable and safe enough to talk to about how you feel? I know you're having lots of negative thoughts about yourself, but they're a distortion of the truth caused by how much pain you're in. You absolutely do deserve help and to feel safe and supported Thinking of you.

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Azziman

Hey @Past User, I hear that you're in a lot of pain at the moment, and I'm really to sorry that you're going through and feeling all this You deserve to be listened to and supported, especially when you're feeling low. You don't deserve to be ignored at all, especially considering all the times that you've been there to listen to others. You absolutely deserve to have people there for you, the same way that you've been there for them, and I'm sorry to hear that it hasn't been reciprocated - it's not fair on you, and you have every right to feel frustrated and angry.

I want you to know that we love having you on here. It's really brave to speak up about how you feel, so really well done for sharing your experience. Your contributions and support for others on here have been really appreciated If you ever want to vent, or talk it out, you know that we're here to listen to you, and to support you. And knowing the community here, I know that the members here will offer that support too

I just wanted to drop some links to support services, who will also listen to you if you'd like that support:
- Crisis Messenger (24/7) | text THEMIX to 85258
- Samaritans (24/7) | call 116 123 | email jo@samaritans.org
- Papyrus (2pm-midnight) | call 0800 068 41 41 | text 07786 209 697 | email pat@payrus-uk.org

I think it's amazing that you're there for others who really need the support, and spending so much of your time and effort to support those who are feeling suicidal is really admirable, so I want to say thank you for all that you do for others. It might not always be said, but doing that for others can really mean the world, so it's really appreciated. It takes a wonderful soul to look out for others in the way that you do, and I can only hope that you'll find people that will do the same for you. Sending hugs

Katie12

hey @Past User I am really sorry that you are feeling so low atm. Nobody deserves to feel this way no matter what you are thinking. Sounds like you are going through a lot and helping others at the same time can be overwhelming. You should feel proud that you are able to support others but i hope you know that you deserve this same support for yourself. thinking of you