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tw. death, body image/ appearance
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i have somehow managed to spin myself into a never ending web of crisis and self-awareness that possibly has no end! hurray!
there are so many structures within society that dictate what we all as a whole think of as "beautiful" and "ugly"
eg. racism and how this is so deeply ingrained into society nevermind what we deem as "beautiful"
things like wide noses and dark skin are often not seen as beautiful as they do not meet the standard of what is beautiful
my dilema is how do i function in a world where there are so many systems that dictate what and how people view what is beautiful
and what is not
i want to feel good about myself and feel beautiful and I do not feel beautiful right now because i do not meet these standards at all
and i want people to find me beautiful and i want to feel desirable
but all these things
clear skin
the "perfect body"
"the perfect hair" are all things that have been decided for us by structures within society as we are not born thinking that to be "fat" is bad
to have perky boobs is bad
to fall under the category of what it means to be beautiful means you are rewarded by society in many different ways eg. more attention from men, better treatment from people in general and many more things!
how do i feel good about myself while still remaining true to who i am and not feeling like im being inauthentic?
having "good skin" and a "good body" would make me feel good and beautiful but i know id be doing that for other people and not truly for myself which makes me feel very inauthentic
but at the same time
again
i want to be desired by people and beautiful but not at the cost of having to constantly change things about myself by adhering to what is "beautiful" at the time
ive spent alot of my life adhering to what other people i want and i feel like authenticity is something i owe myself
but how do i remain authentic in a world that punishes this and makes you feel undesirable and ugly?
maybe there is not an answer to this but id be open to hearing from other people on their opinion on this
i really hope this is understanble and not worded poorly
yours sincerly
orange
there are so many structures within society that dictate what we all as a whole think of as "beautiful" and "ugly"
eg. racism and how this is so deeply ingrained into society nevermind what we deem as "beautiful"
things like wide noses and dark skin are often not seen as beautiful as they do not meet the standard of what is beautiful
my dilema is how do i function in a world where there are so many systems that dictate what and how people view what is beautiful
and what is not
i want to feel good about myself and feel beautiful and I do not feel beautiful right now because i do not meet these standards at all
and i want people to find me beautiful and i want to feel desirable
but all these things
clear skin
the "perfect body"
"the perfect hair" are all things that have been decided for us by structures within society as we are not born thinking that to be "fat" is bad
to have perky boobs is bad
to fall under the category of what it means to be beautiful means you are rewarded by society in many different ways eg. more attention from men, better treatment from people in general and many more things!
how do i feel good about myself while still remaining true to who i am and not feeling like im being inauthentic?
having "good skin" and a "good body" would make me feel good and beautiful but i know id be doing that for other people and not truly for myself which makes me feel very inauthentic
but at the same time
again
i want to be desired by people and beautiful but not at the cost of having to constantly change things about myself by adhering to what is "beautiful" at the time
ive spent alot of my life adhering to what other people i want and i feel like authenticity is something i owe myself
but how do i remain authentic in a world that punishes this and makes you feel undesirable and ugly?
maybe there is not an answer to this but id be open to hearing from other people on their opinion on this
i really hope this is understanble and not worded poorly
yours sincerly
orange
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it sounds obvious but sometimes in a case of being yourself vs having validation from other people
you have to have one or the other
sometimes you cant have both
and unfortunately that is something that you will have to grow VERY accustomed to if you plan to do anything unconventional in your life
some helpful tips to help improve your relationship with how you look:
-follow people/celebrities who have similar features to you/ look like you
(this one is more for poc living in mainly white spaces)
-it might help to make friends with people of similar race or cultural backrounds to you (this could be online)
-make an active effort to reshape how you think about yourself and maybe understand where certain insecurities stem from within yourself (eg. traumatic experience such as bullying)
-explore what YOU think is beautiful! (in yourself and in other people)
-lastly, realise that we are all so much more than our looks! we are complex people with so many interesting/individual thoughts and opinions!!
and despite what people may say no matter what you look like
you are deserving of respect and love
How has your social media usage been? It could be an idea to unfollow or distance yourself from online feeds that encourage negative self-comparison or make you feel bad.
Have you been doing any self-care and getting enough sleep, gentle exercise, and good nutrition? When you find yourself feeling bad about your appearance, remember these feelings will not last forever, try to recognise these intrusive negative thoughts and try to distract yourself with something else. The more we dwell on these thoughts, the bigger and more repetitive they can get, making us feel even worse. Also, what you perceive as flaws in your physical appearance, others may be attracted to.
Hope this helps.
It's so frustrating to think of all of the many standards that we have to try to meet, or as you say try to work against to be our most real selves. It's no wonder you feel so deflated with it all and wonder where to turn to try to feel better about all of this. I certainly love your sister's advice, it's so well thought-out and definitely reinforces that many different ways we can help one another to love ourselves as we deserve!
I just thought I'd also mention (and maybe this sounds really odd) trying to make connections and friendships with people who you don't deem to be 'objectively good looking' because it can make you reconsider how all of these standards and biases influence so many areas of our lives. And this one is much more of a difficult one, but calling it out when we see other people saying stuff that reinforces these negative and restrictive beauty standards (e.g., the other day at work someone said 'boys don't wear nail polish' and I just laughed and said 'why not? it looks nice' and having a simple response like that can cause another person to think deeply about why they care so much about other people's physical appearances)
I know that I am much more than how I look and I offer the world much more than that
but sometimes I just want to be conventionally attractive just so I know how it feels
it feels so terrible when eg.
your friends get asked out tons and you don't
but meh,
maybe it's just one of those battles you lose if you spend your whole life fighting it
Hope this helps.