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I feel awful, suicidal and just like wanting to never wake up. Currently on the call to shout but taking ages to connect.. but hopefully I'll be fine

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Sending hugs @Leila call 999 if you need help urgently x

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Dandelion wrote: »

Sending hugs @Leila call 999 if you need help urgently x

Everything is okay, It's okay!x

Former Member

Aww Leila! Good on you for calling Shout!

Although probably not quite to your extent, I've been there. I don't know if this will help you but this is what helps me. When I tell myself that it gets better, that those feelings will be over, I feel like I'm setting myself up for failure. It feels like once I am better, I have to commit to feeling better and if I have a day where I don't and feel terrible, I'll hit a downward spiral. I'll feel like it won't ever better.

Instead, I think sometimes it does get better. It allows me to have my bad days but still look forward to the good days or even the okay days because I'm not being as hard on myself for those bad days. It makes waiting for those good days, or even moments worth it. It makes life worth it because some moments are just so precious. It doesn't make me feel guilty for having a bad day after I have a good day.

I hope this all makes sense and I hope you know that it's completely okay to not feel okay sometimes! If you're feeling bad right now, that's okay!

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spoon wrote: »

Aww Leila! Good on you for calling Shout!

Although probably not quite to your extent, I've been there. I don't know if this will help you but this is what helps me. When I tell myself that it gets better, that those feelings will be over, I feel like I'm setting myself up for failure. It feels like once I am better, I have to commit to feeling better and if I have a day where I don't and feel terrible, I'll hit a downward spiral. I'll feel like it won't ever better.

Instead, I think sometimes it does get better. It allows me to have my bad days but still look forward to the good days or even the okay days because I'm not being as hard on myself for those bad days. It makes waiting for those good days, or even moments worth it. It makes life worth it because some moments are just so precious. It doesn't make me feel guilty for having a bad day after I have a good day.

I hope this all makes sense and I hope you know that it's completely okay to not feel okay sometimes! If you're feeling bad right now, that's okay!

Awa thank you for sharing your story, you honestly amazing! Well done for coming so far, you've got this! And, thank youu!<3

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Leila wrote: »

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spoon wrote: »

Aww Leila! Good on you for calling Shout!

Although probably not quite to your extent, I've been there. I don't know if this will help you but this is what helps me. When I tell myself that it gets better, that those feelings will be over, I feel like I'm setting myself up for failure. It feels like once I am better, I have to commit to feeling better and if I have a day where I don't and feel terrible, I'll hit a downward spiral. I'll feel like it won't ever better.

Instead, I think sometimes it does get better. It allows me to have my bad days but still look forward to the good days or even the okay days because I'm not being as hard on myself for those bad days. It makes waiting for those good days, or even moments worth it. It makes life worth it because some moments are just so precious. It doesn't make me feel guilty for having a bad day after I have a good day.

I hope this all makes sense and I hope you know that it's completely okay to not feel okay sometimes! If you're feeling bad right now, that's okay!

Awa thank you for sharing your story, you honestly amazing! Well done for coming so far, you've got this! And, thank youu!<3

You will get there! Just hang on yeah? ^__^

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spoon wrote: »

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Leila wrote: »

spoon wrote: »

Aww Leila! Good on you for calling Shout!

Although probably not quite to your extent, I've been there. I don't know if this will help you but this is what helps me. When I tell myself that it gets better, that those feelings will be over, I feel like I'm setting myself up for failure. It feels like once I am better, I have to commit to feeling better and if I have a day where I don't and feel terrible, I'll hit a downward spiral. I'll feel like it won't ever better.

Instead, I think sometimes it does get better. It allows me to have my bad days but still look forward to the good days or even the okay days because I'm not being as hard on myself for those bad days. It makes waiting for those good days, or even moments worth it. It makes life worth it because some moments are just so precious. It doesn't make me feel guilty for having a bad day after I have a good day.

I hope this all makes sense and I hope you know that it's completely okay to not feel okay sometimes! If you're feeling bad right now, that's okay!

Awa thank you for sharing your story, you honestly amazing! Well done for coming so far, you've got this! And, thank youu!<3

You will get there! Just hang on yeah? ^__^

Of course! Not giving up yet, never ever!<3

ellie2000

https://www.nhs.uk/service-search/mental-health/find-an-urgent-mental-health-helpline

ellie2000

Nhs helpline : 0800 6444 101
saneline : 0300 304 7000
Nightlight : 01923 256391
Samaratins : 116 123
shout: text 'shout' to 85258

ellie2000

theres the 'finch' app like a virtual freind, its very gd 4 self therapy n motivation. n there 'fishdom' bit of fun

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ellie2000 wrote: »

theres the 'finch' app like a virtual freind, its very gd 4 self therapy n motivation. n there 'fishdom' bit of fun

Thank you!!! Ellie

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ellie2000 wrote: »

Nhs helpline : 0800 6444 101
saneline : 0300 304 7000
Nightlight : 01923 256391
Samaratins : 116 123
shout: text 'shout' to 85258

This is helpful, thank you!

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ellie2000 wrote: »

https://www.nhs.uk/service-search/mental-health/find-an-urgent-mental-health-helpline

Thank you Ellie, thanks so much!

Former Member

I'm okay, I have them ringing me back tomorrow! So, I'm thankful! Thanks the mix and shout!

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They are calling me at 11, I'm almost forgot lol 😆 but pleased I got support!

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They said they'll get my local mental health team to check up on me, sounds good.!

Laura_tigger82

Hello @Leila. It sounds like you have been finding things really tough.

Sending you hugs. How are you today?

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Laura_tigger82 wrote: »

Hello @Leila. It sounds like you have been finding things really tough.

Sending you hugs. How are you today?

I feel awful 😖

Laura_tigger82

It sounds really difficult that you feel awful @Leila. Would you like to share more with us? We are here for you if you would like to share more with us

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Laura_tigger82 wrote: »

It sounds really difficult that you feel awful @Leila. Would you like to share more with us? We are here for you if you would like to share more with us

Hey Laura,

I feel awful because my ex partner, who I broke up with because he wasn't a kind person, was emotionally abusing me, he hit me once and he now is sending me death threats, so I just feel on edge 24/7, I couldn't sleep last night because of it.

Former Member

That sounds really scary @Leila

Have you been able to talk to anyone about these threats he's been making towards you? Nobody deserves to be treated like that. It sounds like this is a very difficult situation to manage at the moment.

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Brookee wrote: »

That sounds really scary @Leila

Have you been able to talk to anyone about these threats he's been making towards you? Nobody deserves to be treated like that. It sounds like this is a very difficult situation to manage at the moment.

I'm in touch with the police about this thanks x