I apologised

ellie2000

I apologised to Mr c, I was really really tired. Why do Wellbeing calls make u exhausted? Thts wen I told him one of his employees was a bitch coz I'm standing up for myself. Ppl don't it wen I'm assertive, y?

daisyella12

Hi @ellie2000

It was nice of you to apologise to Mr. C. Opening up about how you feel can be mentally exhausting, it isn't always a pleasant experience which may be why you find yourself feeling drained after it. But the fact you are doing the well being calls suggests how strong you are as a person, well done for that! Why is it that you think this about one of his employees?

ellie2000

She left wen it got too much, someone told her to stop, bc they saw wat effect it was having but she didn't. I knew something wasn't right, they told me to keep goin. She left and I was having bad dreams and I was expressing to ppl how upset I was and also I was attacking the ppl who attacked and raped me in the park. Then I got threatened by one of the mums.
The leader who employed her, after I sent those msgs sed tht someone is after me and I'm on edge all the time. Tht y I'm seek constant therapy. Ppl say 'you had enough therapy, u should b better' y? Will I stop wanting to need it?
She brought up feelings 🤬

AislingDM

That sounds so overwhelming, Ellie. It's beyond understandable that you'd reached the end of your tether, equally, I'm glad to hear you felt able to say sorry and understand how words can impact people's emotional states too! Given how vulnerable of a place you have been in, it's beyond reasonable that you want to continue being supported, I'm a huge supporter of the idea that no one can ever 'have enough' therapy, because we can all continue to learn and grow. No one should tell you any different. You deserve to have your pain listened too @ellie2000