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opiod addiction withdrawal
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i started smoking and vaping when i was 13 and have now decided to quit, at 16, using any kind of nicotine as its hella expensive and counteracts my anxiety meds so was making me very anxious. i was having a hard time quitting but i got there eventually, its been over a month. only problem was now i had nothing to use to cope when things were going bad, and they got bad. i remembered about a year ago i got access to some prescription opiods nobody uses anymore and took some just to feel numb for once. well i threw up everywhere and decided not to use it again. but here we are it was my last resort and i thought i was going do it once but i didn’t get sick this time and it felt amazing, my anxiety was gone so i did it the next day, and the next and so on. my dose slowly got more as i got used to it and every time i take its just a sigh of relief because i know the day will be great and nothing can stop me from feeling good. but i went to grab some yesterday and found that there was only one pack left, thats enough to last less than a week, never thought i would get to the point of it completely running out, i have no way of getting more. i had a massive panic. i know it’s probably for the best but i can’t imagine stopping, im lowering my dose but even now im feeling some withdrawals effects. today was the first day in 2 weeks where i haven’t used, been busy all day so being distracted helped. has been 36hrs exactly since last dose, its still been on my mind all day, and have noted withdrawal symptoms chills, excessive yawning, anxiety. it hasn’t been TOO bad but it peaks on days 2-6 so will probably take some tomorrow. wish i never got myself into this.
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Firstly, I just wanted to say that posting about this shows real courage. You've done a great thing to ask for support - these things are never easy and it's something to be proud of.
A huge well done on quitting nicotine, too! What an achievement. Regardless of the place you're in with opioids right now, that's worth recognising. 😊
Circling back to the main point of your post... I'm really hearing how powerful that feeling of relief is for you. One of the most natural impulses is to numb ourselves when we feel emotional or physical pain, and it's honestly understandable that you needed that coping mechanism. I know a lot of people can make us feel bad for it and there can be guilt and shame attached to using drugs, but we all have coping mechanisms and we don't turn to them without a good reason.
No pressure to share this if you'd rather not, but I'm curious what got bad? This is a good place to unpack that a little more if you want to talk about your situation more widely, or what triggered the use of opioids in the first place. It sounds like you've really been going through it.
On the medical side, there are things to help you through the withdrawal process. If you drop into a pharmacy and ask to go to their consulting room (a private space), you can explain your symptoms and they'll be able to either provide advice on how to manage your symptoms, or potentially prescribe you something if they feel it's necessary. If your symptoms start to get really bad or you feel worried about them, you can call 111 or even 999 (you won't get into any trouble).
Of course, you can also continue to post here to keep chatting about things. 😊
How have your symptoms been for the last couple days?
This isn't your fault and you're doing exactly the right thing by asking for help and talking about it. Well done again for posting and keep us posted with how you get on. ✨
i started to sh in year 8, when my issues with trust and anxiety just started. then, things were pretty stable in year 9. it got worse in year 10 and 11 again when i started using/trying substances. anxiety spiraled due to this probably, multiple obsessions, addictions. then with that comes getting caught, and then the horrid withdrawals. when i tried to stop using one thing, i would be on the next.
sh was also a coping mechanism for me, school caught me in yr 10 when someone saw my arm in a food tech class and snitched. i then had therapy for about a year which stopped last october, it really helped to work through sh and some other issues. i dont feel like sharing these though, a lot of it is abuse related and very personal. i also went on medication which did help but has kinda stopped working recently. so it just went downhill again, as well as the fact my childhood cat passed suddenly and i cant sleep, im getting 3-4 hrs usually. but ive decided to book the doctors again and try to get my meds changed, so thats one step forwards.
also, with the withdrawals i haven’t had many the last few days as i have used but its definitely had some effects its had on me mentally. yesterday at dinner i randomly felt like i couldn’t breathe and got upset and started hyperventilating. then today i was so irritable, i got in trouble at school, that then made me super anxious and i had to go home it got so bad, whether its got anything to do with it idk. but its a slow process, im getting there trying to taper off em.
That mental anguish that builds up slowly over the day with each little thing adding till it's finally snowballing must be so unbearable for you, the fact that you're here and putting in so much effort to think of other ways to cope, like trying to get your meds changed, is immensely impressive. If you wanted to talk a bit more about that escaping of reality and how that helps you, I'd be grateful to hear more? No pressure to reply at all though, of course
Apologies if this is not the best response or the one you were looking for. I am new here
ive managed to overcome other things but only with the help of something else, i just want to stop everything completely and have healthy coping mechanisms, not use some other drug to wean off the opiods and then get addicted to that instead its an endless cycle shi.
I do think it's very amazing that even with all the intense fear and the anxiety of this whole experience, you are still wishing for healthy coping strategies, like it's immense that you are still here reaching out to think of how life could be easier and allow you to actually thrive, not be in so much pain.
When you mention wanting to talk to someone, I know you've queried a GP or the school, two ideas which I fully support, I know that can seem daunting too, so I wonder if you've given any thought to any of the more anonymised services like Frank or We are With You? Sometimes that can be an easier first step because there is less worry about judgement from others. Will just post some links to that here if you need:
https://www.talktofrank.com/
https://www.wearewithyou.org.uk/what-we-do/how-we-can-help-you/
How have you been doing in the past few days since taking some more? huge hugs xxx