I am so selfish

Kate_20

I feel like I could no longer come near anyone I love because I am going to destroy them with my tragic death. They would discover my dead body (probably at their home or in their office). I am so selfish for thinking about having anything to do with them because they will discover me dead. I am the kind of bomb that may destroy anyone at any time mentally. I shouldn't be allowed to come near anyone or persue anything.

maryam852

@Kate_20 I am so sorry you are feeling like this. I completely understand why you are feeling like this but you are not selfish, wanting it to end is not selfish. Do you think something has triggered this feeling or has it been going on for a long time? I think the kindest and most thoughtful people find themselves struggling the most and even when you're struggling, you still think about other people. I know you don't want to hurt other people but do you think it would be a good idea to let a friend or family member know?

AislingDM

@Kate_20 you must be so drained at the moment by the burden of your mind, to feel so certain that you will cause others pain is certainly an exhausting position to be in. This anguish must be unbearable, especially given that it's so hard to see the wonderful, kind person that you are, so thinking of having friends around you must feel impossible. Is there anything in particular that's got you thinking of how your death would affect others? huge hugs, and as always support resources are here too xxx

The Mix - Crisis Messenger - Text THEMIX to 85258 (24/7)
Samaritans - Call 116 123 or email jo@samaritans.org (24/7)
Shout - Text 'SHOUT' to 85258 (24/7)
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lovemimoon

@Kate_20 Checking on how you are?

Kate_20

@lovemimoon Not great. I've got some devastating news about the degree.