I have feelings towards a guy with a partner 😬
I need some advice. I have known this guy for about 2 years ago now and have always fancied him. He got a girlfriend about 1 year ago, however, he’s flirty and charming towards everyone, which I can see but can’t stop myself from feeling like it’s only me he’s flirty to. Recently we’ve been spending more time together and are getting closer. We are all over each other when we are together, we’ve never kissed etc, but when we aren’t together I always feel like the conversation is very one sided and he doesn’t make much effort.
I know he’s got a girlfriend and I feel horrible about myself for allowing him to flirt with me etc. However, I’m 18 and not done much more than kiss a guy and never had much attention from boys or a boyfriend. I feel like I crave attention from boys and base my self-worth on this. Him showing me attention and leading me on, in a way, is something that I feel like I need.
I feel like I’m becoming obsessed over this guy, I’ve cried over him and we aren’t dating, but can’t help thinking if he really liked me he would’ve made moves by now. I don’t wanna ruin a friendship but I do feel like our friendship will fizzle out eventually.