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Scared of myself
Former Member
Posts: 177 Helping Hand
I’ve spent years being silent, keeping everything a secret, if someone would have asked me to tell them everything back then I couldn’t.
Now that I have and can I am silencing myself, because I’m scared, because it’s dirty, because I’m ashamed, I’m scared of people, people can harm you, scared of feeling safe and letting my guard down, scared of saying something I’m not allowed to.
Now that I have and can I am silencing myself, because I’m scared, because it’s dirty, because I’m ashamed, I’m scared of people, people can harm you, scared of feeling safe and letting my guard down, scared of saying something I’m not allowed to.
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It sounds like you are having a very difficult time sharing this secret because of the possible consequences and like you are worried to share this secret because you are concerned about how others could react.
I don't want to ask too much because it sounds like this issue is very private, but I think that its really good that you have posted on here and have started talking about some of the feelings you have about opening up. Personally, I always feel a lot better after getting stuff off my chest! Even if it might not feel like it, you are doing really great.
Perhaps having someone professional to talk to would help? In that environment, you can speak about whatever you like, with no judgement! It might feel scary to let your guard down (and it's really difficult!), but carrying this weight on your shoulders all your life will wear you down for no reason. Get this off your chest, and help yourself!