My job stresses me out when I'm not even there
I've been working in a fast food restaurant for two years. I used to only work weekends but in the past year or so I've started working full time during the holidays. It's the only paid work I've ever had.
The job wasn't so bad at first, other than the fact that I was nervous because I was knew and because one of the managers that worked there at the time wasn't very nice. It didn't matter that I didn't know how to do anything because I was new and I always had a manager or a crew trainer or someone making sure I was doing okay.
However, things started to go downhill because I never really had the time to complete all of the extra training that I was meant to do online when I wasn't working. Since starting this job I have gone through the stress of finishing my A-levels, moving away from home, and getting through my first year of university. I basically still feel as though I know a lot less than the other people who work there. I often finish my work day feeling humiliated or stupid. There are only a couple of things that I feel confident doing, so I don't get moved around that much and tend to get stuck doing the same things for hours for days in a row.
I'm lucky to have a job where I can work during the holidays and stop while I'm at university, but arranging the times when I can start working again requires a lot of planning because I don't usually know what I'm going to be doing months in advance. The system that I'm meant to use to update my availability barely works, so I often have to spend ages messaging different managers when they start asking me to come back to work so that they can update it on their end,but the manager I'm talking to now keeps asking even though I've told her the times I can work.
I have at least until the end of the week off but I've been dreading going back since before I even came home from uni because my job is so bad for my mental health but I don't really have the option to quit or change anything in my current situation.