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hey @TheLastDino ! its eylah from chat. gd to see you. ๐
I'm very excited to be here:have tried other things like this and they never helped my mental health:have had bad mental health for a while
hey @TheLastDino good to see you on here ๐
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Welcome to the boards @TheLastDino !
Hey @TheLastDino welcome to the Community! We're all here to listen to you.
Hey everyone - we've had quite a lot of new members join our Discussion Boards lately, yey!!
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hii looking forward to getting to know u guys better!
Hi @jumelo! Welcome to The Mix - it's great to have you here!
Welcome! It's great to meet you.
Hello. I am new here. (TW: Self harm, Suicidal behaviors, Psychosis, Psych ward)
I have struggled for a long time, but could never ask directly for help, trapping myself in my pain. When I was 11, I wrote a note to be read at my funeral before I even knew the term suicidal, I was already planning my death. I first started self harming when I was 13, and around the same time began seeing and hearing things that weren't there. The closest I ever came to revealing that was when a hallucination caused me to dissociate so strongly while riding my bike that I hit a ditch and broke my collarbone. That one was difficult to explain. Not long after, I planned my suicide for the first time. I was unsuccessful and hid it from everyone. I became very good at lying, and at keeping my internal world completely separate from the one people could see.
At the age of 14, my parents sensed something was wrong and got me a counselor, who after a few sessions told them I needed a therapist. I bounced between therapists for a while, slowly letting them further into my world. When I had been a little too honest with one of them, I was sent to a psych ward. It actually helped; even my hallucinations quieted with medication, and for a while I felt better than I had in years. But somewhere in that stillness I realized something: if the happiest I had ever been was inside a psych ward, then I didn't want to be alive at all. So, I began to think about how I could die there. I find irony comforting in a dark way, and that felt like it mattered somehow.
When I got home, I started planning and eventually found a way to get myself admitted again, this time with the intent to die inside the ward.
I don't think it would be good for anyone if I went into the details, but I was a few hours away from carrying out something that would have been lethal. A staff member noticed I was acting strangely and they began to watch me more closely. They found what I had been hiding and stockpiling, and I was placed under a much more careful watch. After my release, they recommended psychological testing. The resulting report said I needed a psychologist who could match my level of planning and depth.
We found one. I have been in real, good therapy for about two months now. I am still struggling, and still very lonely, with almost no friends. It was suggested I try connecting with people in online communities.
So here I am. Thank you for reading this far. I'm looking forward to being part of this community, and to supporting others while I find my footing too.
Hiย @89TimesIn13Realities - thank you so much for sharing your story with us. It is really brave of you to open up and let us know what you have gone through and how you have been feeling.ย
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I am so sorry that you have had to go through all of that, but I am so glad that you have now been able to find a psychologist who can provide you with the support you deserve. It is understandable that you are still struggling, but it is great that you are now in therapy that is benefitting you.ย I'm sure there are others here who will benefit from reading your story and hearing how you now have support in place.
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The Mix is a wonderful community and a great way to connect with people, we are here to listen to and support you. Welcome!