Can't take it.

Animalloverb · November 27

I'm really struggling. My life is over.

AnonymousToe · November 27

Please stay safe

it won’t be this bad forever

Redemption · November 27

We all care for you @Animalloverb ❤️

Animalloverb · November 28

I am going to lose everything.
I just wish things were different.

Nemuritai · November 28

@Animalloverb I'm really sorry you're struggling right now, and that things have been so difficult. You don't deserve to go through so much pain. Would you like to talk about anything? There's no pressure of course, just remember we're all here for you and we really care about you

Ech0 · November 28

@Animalloverb I’m so sorry you’re going through such pain. Even if right now it feels like everything is falling apart, you are still here, and that alone is proof of your strength. We care about you and value you a lot here. You don’t have to carry this weight alone and we are always here to lean on and hold space for you.

Verity · November 28

Hey @Animalloverb I'm hearing that last night was quite difficult for you. We are here for you and I hope you are feeling better this morning, do you feel confortable sharing what made you feel this way? You mentioned loosing everything, we are here to listen if it is what you need?

Animalloverb · November 28

It's just some things in my life are going backwards, things are just not progressing anymore. My conditions are destroying my life goals, my past keeps creeping up on me and changing my life in new ways.

Sian321 · November 29

Hi @Animalloverb , firstly, thank you for making this post. It can feel extremely hard to reach out sometimes when we're in the middle of a really overwhelming time, and your Community is here for you.

I'm mindful the staff team have been in touch via DM, and thank you for responding to us there.

You mentioned that it feels like things in your life are going backwards right now, and you're not seeing the kinds of progress you're really wanting. Feeling that your conditions are 'destroying' your life goals sounds devastating, and I hear a feeling of loss in that almost? Or wanting to protect what you have, but feeling like the past keeps creeping up and seizing it.

If you feel comfortable sharing, what has it looked like for the past to be creeping up on you?

We're here to listen.

Animalloverb · November 30

This time of year my PTSD gets to its worst point. The flashbacks, the memories, it all just comes and takes over my thoughts. It gives me awful anxiety.

I have Worked so hard to be where I am now in life and having everything try to take it all away and set me back is awful and really messes with me. I constantly beat myself up about it.

Invisible_me · November 30

I can hear how hard things are feeling for you right now @Animalloverb .
This can be a horrible tine of year, including myself, where things feel much harder. What appears to be a happy time can be an upsetting and difficult time for others! We are here for you when you want to talk some more.

Azziman · December 1

Hey @Animalloverb, we hear you. I can hear how things are especially challenging this time of year, and are giving you a lot of anxiety. As you say, you've worked ever so hard to get to this point, and overcome lots of challenges on the way, so to feel like you might lose these things is a really difficult concept. Be kind to yourself - you're doing your best to get through each day and these challenges. We're here to support you through this.

Animalloverb · December 1

I'm just trying to avoid going into a depressive episode. They are awful and I haven't experienced then for a while and I am doing my absolute best to avoid that happening. I just feel so low and fed up.

sinead276 · December 1

hey @Animalloverb - it sounds like you're going through a tough time at the moment, doing all you can to prevent a depressive episode. you are being so strong right now and we are all so so proud of you. it's okay for you to just take things one day at a time, just take care of yourself and your mental health - even if its finding one small thing a day you can do thats purely for you and your happiness.

we are always here if you need to talk more or just get things off your chest. but you should be proud of yourself for how far you've come and will continue to go

Animalloverb · December 4

I am still so fed up, and I keep getting random little illness too, it's just annoying as physically I don't feel that bad but before long i will end up loosing everything because of it. I am not coping.

Sian321 · December 5

Hi @Animalloverb , thank you for sharing how you're feeling, and I hear that coping is feeling extremely hard right now. Can I ask, what do you mean when you say that before too long you're going to loose everything? That sounds really overwhelming and upsetting. We're here for you to explore this.

May I also ask, what does it look like at the moment day-to-day when you say that you are not coping? Can I check if you're feeling able to keep yourself safe?

Animalloverb · December 6

I am safe, sorry I just don't really feel capable of talking right now. I'm just a mess

Azziman · December 6

Hey @Animalloverb that's alright, I can hear how things are difficult at the moment. We're here to listen to you and support you through this if you would like to talk about it another time.

Sian321 · December 6

@Animalloverb , I hear you, and that's totally okay - please take all the time you need, and your Community is here for you. It sounds like a really overwhelming time. We're sending you a lot of care.

Please know that the following places are here for you if you'd like some further support:

https://peerchat.link/FAQ
https://peerchat.link/familylives
https://peerchat.link/Gingerbread
https://peerchat.link/painconcern

And these are some resources if helpful when struggling to cope:

https://peerchat.link/15grounding
https://peerchat.link/101grounding
https://peerchat.link/Flashbacks_bl
https://peerchat.link/insighttimer

Animalloverb · December 6

This has been hard to admit. I know I admitted it earlier.

Things can get hard to the point where I know I need to shower but mentally it feels so difficult. It is like an exhausting task, I can't always bring myself round to doing it. Same with my body needs- eating and drinking, sometimes I can't recognise those signals because there is so much going on.

Ech0 · December 6

@Animalloverb I can really hear how heavy everything feels right now and I am so sorry you are going through such a difficult time. What you are dealing with sounds exhausting, overwhelming and very painful. That doesn’t means you have lost yourself or are failing but instead it means you are facing something extremely hard and still trying your best which takes courage.

It is also understandable that the thought of slipping into a depressive episode scares you. Wanting to protect yourself from that is a sign of self-awareness and care. You are doing everything you can and even in moments where you feel like you can’t cope, that effort matters a lot and we are proud of you for it.

I also hear how worn down you feel. Feeling physically off can make everything ten times heavier. When your body is struggling and your mind is overloaded, even the simplest tasks can feel impossible. We believe in you and know you can get through this one step at a time.

It is a relief to hear that you are safe which is very important. Please remember that it is okay to rest and take your own time and do things at your own pace. You are not alone in this and we are here for you as much as you need.

Can't take it.

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