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Just don't want to be here anymore
Invisible_me
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I jist cant do this anymore. Dont want to be here anymore.. ive fighter for as long as I can, trying to take 1 day as it comes but it just feels pointless! Everything feels so hard!
Im scared everything's going to fall apart and I really dont want it to.
Im scared everything's going to fall apart and I really dont want it to.
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Can I ask, are you feeling able to keep yourself safe at the moment? The staff team will be reaching out to you via DM to check in further.
I wonder if there might have been something that's triggered the fear that everything could fall apart? Or perhaps it has been more of a general feeling?
We're here for you @Invisible_me , and thank you so much for your trust in sharing this.
Thanks @Redemption . Im safe. I managed to keep myself, guess I had to!
Hi @Sian321
Thank you for message.
Everything just feels too hard, like things aren't going to get easier and I jyst feeling like I haven't got the strength to so this.... tge thought of trying to get through December, Christmas is hard! All the change, sensory overload!, work was goung well and now all of a sudden it feels like ive failed probation and im in the brink of losing it sunless Har decide to offer me further extension ( i so hopr so!).. the thoygh of losing it is terrifying as much anxiety it caused!!
My mum wasnt too good either, , dad os battling with long illnesses although well at moment so....
Im trying hard and hace kept myself safe..I've got no plans hust all feels so dark!
It sounds like you're carrying a lot right now and you're doing so well to share this with us rather than sitting with all of this on your own. What you've described here (the pressure at work, worrying about your parents' health, the heaviness that comes with December and all the sensory and emotional overwhelm), is a huge amount for one person to hold. Feeling this way doesn't mean you have failed. We can see you've been trying so hard to keep going for such a long time, despite these really tough circumstances.
It's also totally okay and valid that this time of year feels like a tricky time for you, and you're not alone in that. December can be a hard month for many people. especially when routine changes, expectations may rise and everything can feel so much louder and intense around Christmas. Sometimes taking things one small step at a time rather than thinking about the whole month ahead can help it feel a little more manageable. How does that sound? I also wonder if there's anything you've done in the past that has helped you get through this month?
I'm hearing that you're waiting to hear back from HR about whether they will offer your a further extension for your probation, and being in that waiting period thinking you have failed your probation sounds quite distressing. I can imagine that it might make your mind jump to the worst-case scenario, but I think the fact they might be considering a further extension shows that they see your effort. Do you know when you should hear back from HR?
You also mentioned that your mum isn't too good and your dad has been battling with long illnesses. That's a lot to worry about on top of everything else, especially as they're people you genuinely care about and love. It really does make sense that you might be feeling really stretched at the moment. Caring about people your love can take a huge emotional toll, and it's really important you're able to look after your own wellbeing as you go through this.
I hear you're trying really hard and you have kept yourself safe with no plans at the moment, but everything is feeling really dark right now. Feeling this low can be quite scary in itself, but you don't have to face this alone. You've taken a really strong step reaching out to our Community and we'll continue to listen and be there for you.
We just wanted to let you know that if you did feel at any point that you were unsafe going to act on thoughts of suicide, then we would urge you to call the emergency services on 999, or go to your local A&E department to explain your intentions to them, so that they can support you.