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I don't think I can translate it here since it's quite dark to be honest - most of my poems are, it's just kind of therapeutic to write my feelings out when I'm feeling low 💙
fair enough. have you used duolingo before to learn more japanese? i heard its pretty good.
Yes, that's where I started learning japanese actually ^^ then after a year or so I progressed on to textbooks and consuming more native-level material 💙 Out of curiosity, where did you start learning russian?
my parents both know russian so i kind of just learnt it from them. i didnt take russian as a gcse because i can understand it but i cant really read or write it which sucks. they did say back then that i would receive tutoring, but honestly even with tutoring i dont think i can even get a 4 for foundation russian because its quite hard for me to learn it in the first place. so i didnt take it.
Oh, I see. To be fair, I've heard russian is quite a hard language, so it's definitely not just you. Though if you ever decide to start learning I wish you luck 💙
thanks. what are your plans for the rest of this evening?
I think I'm going to get an early night's rest soon, and hopefully I'll feel less ill tomorrow. Have you got any plans for this evening?
alright, i hope you have a goodnight. im probably just gonna chill for one more hour before going to bed too. hopefully i dont pull an all nighter like i almost did last time.
Aw, I really hope you get some sleep too. It was really nice chatting with you 💙
it was nice chatting with you too.
dont mind me using the boards at 3am lol.
I know, it's hard to know what you'll get when you speak to childline, it can kind of go either way. In any case, I'm glad you spoke to someone helpful.
thanks, yeah it depends on who you get really. how was your sleep?
Hi, I didn't see this until just now sry 💙 Not too bad, thx - did you get any sleep?
no
Aw I'm sorry to hear that, hopefully you can get some rest soon. Sending hugs
thanks
@Redemption I know that I have apologised and that is better than defending my crappy actions but I know this will probably happen again. I have a problem with speaking my mind which basically means I just say what's on my mind without considering if this will hurt someone. Why I do this, I have no idea? My guess is my autism but I honestly have no clue. And while you might say something wrong every now and then, like @Nathan said, me being a twat is pretty constant and pretty much happens at every interaction I have here so it'll be best if I leave this community.
@Nathan I agree with @eylah with their point, couldn't of said it better. I plan to put this all behind us when I delete my account and wipe my existence from here and hopefully everyone can just move on and pretend none of this ever happened. I know you still say I'm part of the community, but even though you are right in saying that, I don't deserve to be in this community and I wouldn't be surprised if one or two people agree with me on this point.
@mai You probably going to ignore this so I don't know why I'm doing this, but I am sorry. Why did I think it was a good idea to say what I said. My dumbass ass autistic braindead head thought it was a good idea for some reason. I know you dont care and probably not going to read this but id like to say im sorry.
@River I am sorry. Why I decided to be unsupportive, same reason as @mai I'm just braindead or something.
@TheMix Can you DM so we can discuss deleting my account?
That's it. I know this isn't great and I probably missed someone but it took me hours to write this down.
Hey @eylah, I know the feeling and I'm sorry you're feeling down today. I know it sounds kind of clichéd but it's okay to not be okay. I'm here for you and I'll always listen if you want to talk about anything at all
While I did feel irritated by some things you have said, it’s not a grudge I’m prepared to hold - you are still very much welcome here and I don’t think anyone intended to make you feel you weren’t. I think what happened was, you had been saying some things that had made people feel dismissed, and eventually it became too much and they felt they had to say something to you. The thing is, if these things aren’t communicated, it just builds up and builds up, and people eventually snap.
I really feel you are capable of positive change and, if you did feel you wanted to stick around, we would support you in that. You deserve to be supported as much as the next person, and no one would want you to be isolated in such a hard time.
When you’re in a space full of people from different walks of life, there are bound to be disagreements and personality clashes in some places, and that’s normal. It doesn’t mean you have to leave, but at the same time, people might feel in their own mind that they need to call it out, and that’s ok too so long as it’s done respectfully (which here, i think it was). It’s not a sign from the universe, it’s part of interacting with other people online in particular.
Here's some services if you need
https://kellysheroes.org.uk/
These are normally pretty good they open at 6 pm till 10pm Monday to Friday and open on weekends 6pm till 11pm
https://www.myblackdog.co/
These are pretty good but only open Sunday to Wednesday 7pm till 10pm
https://knus.io/
This is a peer to peer support service, someone should set you up through a peer and chats are done through what's app
Shout is a text messaging service, open 24 hours but at night it takes a very long time to get through, text 85258
Phone service
Call 116 123
and has text service but it only works for some
https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/
update: i had a really good experience with them again, the rightlines volunteer was so nice and supportive.
i’m here for you.